The Greatest Pain in Life

  The greatest pain in life
is not to die, but to be ignored.

To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.

To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.

When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.

To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.

To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.

To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".

When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.

For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.

When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.

Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?

Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.

Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.

If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.

You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.

 

Taurus: People are speaking with an added edge to their voice.**


i dunno wats wrong with these ppl.they r giving me HELL! seriously,sometimes i juz feel tt i need no 'frens' or ppl like them...watever shit! they r juz wasting my precious time.when i try to b nice to them they take advantage of me.it really does PAY 2b nice. to b alone is all i need.tts when i get peace.so many things r going on in my head! i wanna get them all out! ...but how? wanna 4get bout e past but sometimes they keep coming back to haunt me. relationships... blah...all i wanna ask 1 person is tt: who do u c when u look at me.another woman? no i dun like e feeling of being a 'dai ti ping'. i know nuting goes smoothly as we want it to b,but there r so many 'IF ONLYs' in my head...i really m trying not to think to much.when i m free i m gonna write my past failed relationships in my webby man..think u ppl will find them funny too.think if i ever live till 60+ n i look back,i will too laugh my head off. hai... now my sis fren (who is 30+ married already) is trying to b funny with me..hai...

still remember when i was sec3.. knew an ah beng frm irc.he was really nice although not v shuai (so wat? shuai can 'tian bao ni de du zi meh').still can roughly remember his face.he damn shy de.once he confessed tt he likes me at e mrt after sending me home, his whole faced turned red at tt pt of time! so cute! haha.really like a tomato.1st time i c this kind of thing man. hehe.i forced him to say it coz many time he kept saying:'i wanna tell u something..' i was like ok..den always nvm de in e end.i was also thinking..ok.. nvm..mayb dun say is even better. well.. after he confessed,i juz walked away to save him frm embarrassment. i felt kinda bad tt i rejected him even till now.he showered me with gifts e.g a monkey soft toy+ e pig keychain frm mu-ee! at first tot it was ugly..but now i m really in love with it!he even gave me his geo notes he did himself!(though i din need it coz his was physical geo..)so sweet!tts e time when i know his chi name is YiFeng.still remembers e nite where we went to fisherman village 4 dinner n had a long walk after tt.e things we said...=) now after we lost contact i really misses him. all becoz of me.always waiting 4 ppl to make e first move.well i did gave him my new no. .. n was juz waiting 4 him to sms me..he did..4 a while..n now..this is it!no news frm him le. hmm.. guess ppl come n go.ok enuff enuff.its all juz memories.think too much also not gd.

today was also kinda mad..suddenly my ex boss called me n told me she received a police report about me i think.its frm a customer i think too.immediately i tot of e incident whereby a ger paid her 2 tops($28 each) by nets it was declined.i was thinking.. huh?! she have e CHEEK to report to police about me! it was juz a small thing n btw,it was my loss ok.i paid 4 her 1 top already! watever..later i called her again n told her i still have e receipt as proof.n she told me e ger was on e other line.n LATER, when i wanna make sure wat was e report about.she told me: "MISCOMMUNICATION!it is regarding another issue." wah-ha-ha.v funny.wat e shop system..i kept asking wat was e report actually about she kept changing subj n din ans my Q! -.- great! something is v wrong. since she WAS toking to a GER on e phone juz now.tomolo i WILL get her no. n tok about it. i still suspect it is tt customer. mayb i said i have e receipt as proof n e whole thing is going against her? YES I WILL coz i wan justice to b made! e boss even said wanna deduct from my pay which i will b going back to e shop to collect tomolo. i told her how can she do tt?! i paid e tops on her behalf already,wat gives her e rite to do so? she did not have any loss.it's me alrite! but nvm coz lesson learnt. anyway,i will go n get my pay tomolo n make sure no $ is being deducted! need to sort things out too man.

o ya today received post frm tp n i will attending e IT course in june.have to go 4 medical check-up.tt will keep me bz. i will go HAPPY a little.. all by myself..whether its shopping or wat..(hey its not bad afterall k.at least u can take ur own sweet time looking n trying on clothes.i love it!)..since some ppl say wanna go out but now still havent confirm yet.(i bet in e end it will still b cancelled) 'all..by..my..self~' hey! i dun 4ever need company k! i m independent! yeah!!!!!

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