The Greatest Pain in Life

  The greatest pain in life
is not to die, but to be ignored.

To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.

To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.

When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.

To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.

To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.

To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".

When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.

For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.

When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.

Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?

Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.

Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.

If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.

You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.

 

Taurus: People have shifted their way of thinking - they are more selfish now.**

had e sucky cmsk subject today.din wanna go de coz had to tok in front of e class on a topic tt e teacher would make us pick out from an envelope.. but no choice.. cannot run away from it anway. this wk dun do there will surely b another day 4 it. no way. cannot b a coward. so i went. sat there 4 2 hrs till it was my turn. last in class as usual ma coz of ma surname... ZHOU. was like waiting to die like tt. damn long. i damn heng lor. picked an ez 1... wat would i do with e money if i have 1million dollars. wth.. ez rite?! wasted only... i heng heng got wat i wanted lor coz e rest were worse... my ambition.. my passion.. fav tv show..-.- wth to say man.. but too bad i wasted it.. actually tot wat i wanted to say liao if i am to pick this few ez 1s.. but e moment i stood in front i began to 'kou chi'. 'travel' n i dunno said wat...'tra-vel' or wat..'tra-fel'..-.-""""' kept saying i would do this n this.. blah blah blah... no "because blah blah blah"... no conclusion also.. coz i tot e way i said it how to have 1? BLEAH! think those ppl who din do well 4 e other sucky topics they picked r 'suay' lor.. they sure would have done better if they were to have my topic. DAMN EZ LOR! ARGH!! stupid.. it was like might as well skipped e lesson n go to e lab to do my fndb assignment coz i will get f9 anyway.. hai... though had a bit of support from e girls but still... not much diff lor.. more stress only.. coz i will only disappoint them.... damn 'mei lian jian ren'... so ez also cock up..-.-

today damn have no mood lor.. dunno is it coz my "aunty" come visit me liao... on my way to sch saw my classmate cai er at e bus stop.. din c her till she called me.. kena shock.. on e bus din tok to her or wat coz i sat in front.. like damn unfriendly hor.. =( but dunno wat to say also ma.. in sch we dun tok de.. den in sch damn irritated lor.. seems to me tt i have no time to complete a lot of things.. assignments blah blah blah.. i m running out of time man! all due next wk n i m less den half done with them... shit. at apel tut cai er offered me sweet but i din wan it. usually i m not used to take things from ppl i dun know v well de ma.. but c her like tt dun wanna make her think tt i hate her or had anything against her la(on e bus i already so bad liao).. so i took it. i was like.."no thanks.." den c her face.." ok la.. lai lai lai.. give me. i eat la... give u face.." haha... c her so sad ma.. den during e cmsk e group of girls were sitting behind us so we did tok a little lor.. not bad la actually they all.. mayb tt time c they prettier than me den i jealous only.. lol... ya la.. seriously they not bad lor..mayb i kept c-ing my face in e mirror so many times tt i m so sick of it liao. e stare stare de also tok a bit.. not bad la.. juz tt tt time din like her keep staring at me.

let me tell u.. i HATE ppl to stare at me. look 4 more den 10sec also cannot .. when i look at them they still stare a bit b4 turning away.. those with tt kind of look worse.. not happy like tt.. as if i have done anything wrong. watever it is... i hate tt k. whether its a fren(if there's anything wrong juz tell me k.. dun juz keep looking at me as if i should know wat e prob is), my dad, my aunt, my sis, ppl i dunno, my boyfren(tt is if i ever have 1). cannot be to admire me lor... coz i wouldnt think of it as tt .. disgusting.. mayb i m really too sick of myself liao... i know i m not ugly la.. but i wouldnt b pretty either.. juz normal. to b normal i m already happy... those damn pretty de i muz say they muz thank their parents man... they r only lucky tt they have e looks... those ugly de not their fault ma.. they din choose to b this way.who wans to b anyway? cant stand those who think as if they r "god".. its juz on e outside.. they r juz human like e rest of us..wats so great? i dun give a damn about them..c also dun wanna c. mayb tts y i dun hang ard with them..coz most of e time all i c r a bunch of useless ('zhong kan bu zhong yong' de) pigs who think too highly of themselves. k la.. mayb i 'zi bei' , jealous only k.. but seriously.. some of them(u can commonly on streets, along orchard rd) walking with their head high up. k.. mayb tts wat confidence is all about but some of them damn snobbish lor..'mu zhong wu ren' ah...

some kind of story to share:

juz now was surfing e web n i came across this story about the tree,the leaf n the wind. heard it on 93.3 too i think some time ago... i m not gd with words.. dunno how to say it... so it would b better if i copy n paste it here, then u all would get e whole thingy.. or story... here it goes:

Story of Leaf’s Departure

Tree:
My name is Tree. Why? It is because of my talent in painting trees. Through time, all my paintings were trademarked with a tree at the lower right corner.
I have dated 5 girls in my Pre-U years. But, there was this one special ordinary girl who I am very fond of that I have never dated. She totally captivated me with her innocence, honesty, intelligence, cuteness and fragility. Felt as though I have to protect her from this ugly world. Reason why I’ve never dated her is that I felt she was too ordinary for me, or maybe, I am afraid to taint a heart as pure as hers. Her name is Leaf. We were good friends.
Through the 3 years, she watched me as I dated each girl. It must have been a terrible feeling to see the one you love going after another. ‘Cause each time that I did, she cried. She didn’t know that I know she cried, but I know. When I was with my second girlfriend, she bumped into us accidentally when we were kissing. Embarrassed she was, but she smiled and said, “Sorry, go on…” before running off. The following day, her eyes were as swollen as walnuts. I just made fun of her the whole day just to hide my emotions from her. She was then alone in the classroom, crying. I was there instead of being at my soccer training, but she did not know. She cried for an hour. I watched her.
My fourth girlfriend did not like her. There was this one incident when both of them quarreled. I figured that my girlfriend must have started it as she wasn’t the type to start a quarrel. But, despite knowing this, I told her to stop. Her eyes were filled with tears as I walked off with my girlfriend. It must have hurt. Even I felt hurt for hurting her. The following day, she continued to laugh and joke with me as though nothing had happened.
When I broke off with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. I told her that I have something that I wanna tell her. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me as well. I told her about my break up and she told me of her attachment. I know the very moment who the guy was. His name is Wind. He had been going after her for a while now. An interesting cute guy filled with energy. His pursuit for her has been spread throughout the school. I congratulate her, hiding my pain within me. Now I know how it felt. It was terrible. It feels as though a vacuum from with the heart is sucking the walls in, unbearably painful. I broke down and cry when I got home. It hurt, and it hurt more to think of the pain she went through for me.
Ten days after, during my graduation, I read an sms. It was sent on the day I went out with her. It says, “Leaf left. Not because of Wind’s pursuit, but because Tree did not asked Leaf to stay.”

Leaf:
I liked collecting leaves and I admired them. I feel that it takes lots of courage for a leaf to leave the tree she had relied on for so long.
During my Pre-U days, there was this guy whom I was very close with. We were like buddies. But jealousy hit me when he started dating his first girlfriend. This was when I realized that what I had felt for him wasn’t just friendship.
They broke up two months after. But he got together with another a month later. I liked him and I know he is also fond of me. Why won’t he pursue me? It hurts me deep each time he got together with another. But I waited by his side, caring for him, loving him, hoping that one day, he might be with me. And I waited for 3 years.
At the end of the third year, I came to know of a guy named Wind. He is a second year junior, a guy who gave his all to be with me. His pursuit for me was relentless, like a warm, gentle wind trying to sweep a leaf off the tree she is holding on to. I realized that this wind would bring this badly battered leaf to a better, far away land. I decided to give this wind a chance. I told Tree that I was leaving, hoping that he might ask me to stay. Tree just smiled and congratulated me. And I left Tree. I left, not because of Wind’s pursuit, but because Tree did not asked Leaf to stay.

Wind:
I’m Wind, a second year junior. I’ve fallen for a girl named Leaf. A girl who was very attached to Tree. I first saw Leaf a month after I’ve transferred to the new school. She was this innocent petite looking girl who is always watching Tree during our soccer practices. Every practice, she’ll be there looking at him, frowning each time he talked to another girl, and smiling each time he turned to look at her. And each time, I’ll be looking at her.
One day during our practice, Leaf did not appear. And Tree wasn’t at the practice either. An uneasy feeling overwhelmed me. I just had to know what had happened. I went to their classroom to look for them. There, I saw Tree arguing with Leaf. And I saw Leaf cried as Tree left. The following day, she appeared again, at the same place, looking at him. I went over to her, smiled and passed her a note. She turned to look at me and accepted the note. She returned me a note the following day that says, “Leaf’s heart is too heavy for Wind to blow her away.” I then wrote her another note, “It is not because Leaf’s heart is too heavy. It is because Leaf did not want to leave Tree.”
We started to talk more often after that. Though I know that I’m not the one she loves, but I know that if I persevere, she will like me someday.
For four months, I have had declared my love for her countless times. And each time, she will avoid the topic. And each time she did, I tried again.
One day, when we were talking over the phone, I ask her again to be with me. There was a break of silence.
And I asked, “Hey, still there?”
She replied, “I’m nodding my head.”
“Huh?” I exclaimed, not believing what I’m hearing.
With a louder volume she replied, “I’m nodding my head.”
I hung up the phone and sped down to her place. The moment she opened the door, I hugged her, tightly. But at the same time I was thinking, “Did Leaf left because of Wind’s pursuit, or because Tree did not asked Leaf to stay.”


got it? kinda sad rite?

Li.di.ya turned back time on 9:43:00 PM.