The Greatest Pain in Life

  The greatest pain in life
is not to die, but to be ignored.

To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.

To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.

When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.

To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.

To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.

To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".

When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.

For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.

When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.

Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?

Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.

Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.

If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.

You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.

 

Taurus: Bring your artistic skills back to life. Don't let them lie dormant.**


TUE:
Taurus: If you feel as if someone has turned against you, tell him or her.**

MAMMA MIA!
yup.. tt was wat i watched yesterday. nope.. it wasnt e stupid channel U food show... its e musical play which is gonna show at e esplanade. so damn shiok man... v nice!!!! all e ABBA songs they sang.. the dances...e funny/cute parts... ahh~ dunno how long nv go 4 plays liao.. years man! tt time was thinking to get e tix.. but v few will b interested to go.. so well.. 4 get it! so glad tt i got to go.. =D though it was juz a dress rehearsal.. it was almost as gd as the real thing..

actually tt time i was planning to go meet Qian Hui @ orchard de lor... after going lunch with the girls @ suntec. since i wanted to take a bus from the esplanade bus stop.. i remember my sis is working at e California there.. so tot drop by c if she was working. yup.. saw her from afar.. when she walked out to tok to me, she said some 'ang mo' who went there to eat earlier gave them some free dress rehearsal tix. damn lucky lor.. each tix i think.. worth about $100+ lor... din wanna miss it so called QH to come esplanade instead.. so we both could watch e play... victoria+ her bf+her mum came to c it too... was quite a waste tt my sis couldnt join us @2pm coz she was working till 3... e place was short of ppl too, tts y she couldnt leave earlier. she missed those gd parts lor.. poor thing.. =( so after her work she joined us with another fren of hers.. o.O din know she would b going too.. hmm.. anyway.. enjoyed e play ALOT! =D

after tt went bugis walk walk with QH... saw some shops looking 4 pt sales asst so i juz left my contacts with them. there was 1shop tt needs to know whether i m a smoker or a non-smoker.. i was like..o.O.. e girl said e boss juz needs to know.. hmm.. funny... n guess who i saw when i walked pass the food court there. yu yue! haha.. selling drinks there.. i was as suprised as her that i saw her there.. coz usually i kinda 'blind' 1.. i juz heng heng happened to look at her direction...

really had fun yesterday.. e play.. blah.. n had a crazy with QH.. QH thinks tt i more talkative le after going to poly.. hmm..i think so too.. hehe... but have things to tok also ma.. n muz c with who also.. bleah =P


TODAY:
b4 going to sch, heard e 'ying yue ri ji' on 93.3fm. was about a guy's family... his mum being abused by e dad.. kinda poor thing reminded me of last time too.. i kinda agree that when we were young, there was almost nuting we could do, though we dun agree with family violence. i really miss my mum, i kinda blame myself 4 not going to visit her often. it has been a yr le ba since i saw her... my dad still goes to visit her.. think after my exams i will b joining him... no more excuses tt i m bz.. blah.. i actually m juz plain LAZY. some kind of daughter i m.. too 'shi bai' le.. kinda 'pei fu' her that she actually gave birth to me.. i should b thankful n treat her gd.. my dad too.. they all old liao.. dunno if they die le will i cry or anything...mayb reaction slow?( as usual..) bleah.. go treat my dad 4 tim sum after my papers.. i MUZ! really love my sis actually.... though i dun really show it.. n we r not tt close.. but seriously.. of all my family ppl i treat her quite gd le.. my aunt leh? have not been toking to her much after e quarrel tt nite... nowadays we r juz living our own life. she treats e tenants even better than me. really no difference if i stay outside alone... hai... really like "jiu shou xi de mo shen ren".... damn tired ah....

kinda feeling fed up rite now... its WED! hmm...

i m tired of having to repeat myself over n over again(when i m being interupted.. i m not a voice recorder.). i m tired of trying to let ppl feel my presence..(hello.. i m juz beside u). i m tired of having to catch up with ppl(wats e pt when it seems tt they r delibrately trying to get away from u?... at least i have e paitence to wait..). i m tired of not getting reply from some1 when i ask a question(b it face to face or sms).i m tired of being ignored(as if i toking to myself or ppl r juz cant b bothered to listen to wat i m saying). i m tired of ppl not having eye contact with me when toking(i will juz take it tt they r not toking to me... now i understand e importance of eye contact). i m tired of trying to please ppl(which i usually dun). i m tired of trying to b in a crowd(when its as gd as being alone). i m tired of blah blah blah... ALOT OF THINGS!

i m happy to b myself. i m happy tt i show how i feel about some1 when i hate tt person( i m not ashamed to show n proud of it! y b a hypocrite?) i m happy to b a loner(wats there to b ashamed of? some ppl juz despise them.. well i despise those ppl. cant they learn to b independent?) i m happy tt i enjoy window shopping alone(having fun trying on clothes,w/o having to worry wasting ppl's time...) i m happy tt i m sensitive(better than those insensitive ppl..who dun really care bout how others feel) blah blah blah...

have u ever c some1.. who SO 'JIAN', when meeting 'tt person' somewhere with a few others, den happen u to c 'tt person' walking from e opp direction towards u. 'tt person' saw u but quickly turned away.. walking with e head higher up as if walking e cat walk. den later 'tt person' walk pass u liao den when u try to call, 'tt person' jia jia.."o... u all r here..." -.-" if u know wat i toking bout.. den u know y i find it JIAN. if u dun.. nvm.. i still find it JIAN lor..

i cant b borthered to try n snatch e limelight away from her since she loves it... i dun like to b e centre of attraction as much either... all give her man...

mayb some ppl r wondering wat is wrong with me.. but sometimes i feel ppl ard me dun care bout my existence. so.. i decided to leave... u may think tt i think too much... but actually i did not... its juz those reactions i have been receiving tt only i know... not tt u ppl r aware of...

Li.di.ya turned back time on 3:04:00 PM.