The Greatest Pain in Life

  The greatest pain in life
is not to die, but to be ignored.

To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.

To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.

When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.

To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.

To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.

To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".

When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.

For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.

When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.

Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?

Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.

Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.

If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.

You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.

 

Taurus: Mercury turns direct today; communication gets back on track.**

juz feel like switching off my hp. "disconnect" from this place. but i turned it to silent mode instead. watever, i need a break. i dun give a damn to who is gonna call me next or send an sms. ok.. im trying to do tt. i dunno i m suffering from d_____ or wat.. it juz goes on n off...10101010101................ mg..

u call me NT-social? a loner? so wat? i'm not alone. i m not e only 1 who feels e way i m feeling rite now. u understand by this sentence, extracted from e movie "b4 sunset"? ==> "its better to b alone than having ur lover beside u n feel lonely." exactly same as wat i think. i'd rather b alone. blah blah..... having lots of tots rite now. not gonna type it here. no pt i guess. none of any1's business. (if any1 actually waste their time to c this)

sometimes ppl juz hurt u so bad w/o knowing themselves.. dun they 'fan xing'? mayb its my own fault, causing these things to happen. sometimes it juz makes me wonder m i really tt bad of a person? tt i dun deserve gd treatment from any1? every1 has their own side of e story. but do they know mine? dun even think they r bothered by it coz i c no effort being made. ok la.. i m a boring person k. i know.

i m unsure about myself as well as e ppl ard me. feeling insecure all of a sudden. damn lousy. y do i let ppl affect me so easily? think i need some1 to slap me real hard in e face. or juz ... 'sha le wo ba'!


sch today was great! nv felt this "enlightened" b4. actually paid attention during NMM lec. so proud of myself. =B picked up a few impt points today 4 web designing which i think is v useful coz have been doing e wrong stuff all these while. hmm... den actually went to e library to find some books by myself. woohoo~ i should do this more often man. gotta catch up with my sch work le.

went to e vcd shop at simei 4 an interview.. (pray hard tt i get e job man.) den home sweet home.. ah.. no place like it!

den 1 sickening thing happened. was having my dinner n watching tv when my aunt's tenant from china commented: "you zai buo she meh gui pi dian shi?" (translate to something like: wat stupid programme/e hell is e tv showing again?") nonetheless, tt was how rude it sounded. damn sacarstic. e tv was showing "hai you ming tian" lor. like... b sensitive pls... trying to say tt singapore's programmes suck is it? infront of me? sorry.. i m not ur 'tong zhi' lor. i love my country. i love singapore. no respect man. always saying stuffs about singaporeans with another tenant, who is her 'tong zhi'. like as if we r e only SICK ones who treat e maids badly....blah blah... watever. fed up of her. everytime tok until so sacarstic n ask weird n stupid Q. i will make sure my aunt chase u 2 out!

tomolo going out with ros n qiao mei. hope everything goes well when i wake up tomolo. still dunno wat i gonna do on christmas. actually planned quite a bit but.... i really dunno... hai... sometimes juz sick of ppl asking wat m i gonna do blah blah blah with my "frens".... do have a few but not tt close. coz they have their own stuff, frens n bf to tend to.. so........ 4 this new yr may b going with ros n group to chiong... if possible join pei yuan too. if not.. stay at home again lor. =P




SAT:
Taurus: Don't read too deeply into unexpected comments from loved ones.**

went to dan's bd party. was kinda weird 4 me coz most of e ppl r from his camp, den.. ya... guess tt goes to lynn, ivan n another guy as well... so we were like e odd 1s. so after passing him his present n eating some food, left his place n went to meet sam 4 e movie marathon le.

on e train to orchard saw my hairstylist cousin too. so i went up to him.was expecting a 'hi' but all i got was him, staring at me. -.- n i had to say "u know who m i or not?" again. he couldn't regconize me! bleah! mayb coz we only c each other during chi new yr when his family come to my aunt's house... n when i m always 'lub lub' dressed. =P




SUN:
Taurus: When you make your intention clear, you get tremendous support.**

double ocean's movie marathon was kinda nice.. (tiring too..) prefered Ocean's 11 than 12 coz more "action".. after e movie we walked to e esplanade to slack le. juz love tt part. felt damn relaxed n stuff... =) XING FU! bleah.... later went to 85 4 breakfast den home sweet home le... shrek is ON tonite!

Li.di.ya turned back time on 9:20:00 PM.