The Greatest Pain in Life

  The greatest pain in life
is not to die, but to be ignored.

To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.

To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.

When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.

To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.

To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.

To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".

When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.

For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.

When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.

Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?

Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.

Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.

If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.

You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.

 

wat a day it has been! phew! now using e pc after my work.. rushed here after sch.. zzz... damn boring lor sch.. hai.. especially today had my 1st lesson of dunno wat class... to improve our communication skills de.e teacher looked sucky too. =X wa lau next wk muz tok infront of e whole class.. i girls sch already cant tok now in poly... ... n yup.. e fuzion mix is here liao..selling smoothies again..at last! tonite dunno y alot of ppl man.. bz 4 bout 1-2hrs ah.. u can imagine..non stop leh..making smoothies. now i backach liao.. =( o ya.. saw it again. wat is it? some1 eating our sandwich like a burger again! this is like e 4th time i c it? u know wat i mean by 'like a burger'? coz we use 2 slice of bread to make 1 pack.den we cut into half,into triangle shapes. den we stack them yup. they actually din 'unstack it'? (hehe.. funny word i use but ya..u know wat i toking bout la..) n they juz bite into it! big mouth they have.. =X i know i v bad la but think u will laugh also when u c it.. damn tired liao. waiting 4 GY to do e papers 4 closing.. tomolo still gotta get up early 4 a dunno wat talk at 9.50. zzz... lazy to go man.. if not i can slp till 10. my class starts at 12pm. o well.. c if i can get up not.. if not i dun go le..zzzz...

Li.di.ya turned back time on 12:16:00 AM.

today finish sch damn early.. 8 to 10am only.. zzz..after sch go tm eat..walk walk..den go home slp..dunno y after sch so tired. yesterday go home sleep.woke up 4 dinner den slp again. wa pig man.ya after slping less den 2 hrs. woke up to go orchard shopping! with dan...he was late 4 1.5hrs n during tt time i was walking ard alone. went Isetan mango to check out my top n skirt which i like alot but din manage to find them. but i saw another colour of my skirt there.but i still prefer e other 1.however..i saw many orange tops! hehe.. had fun trying them on.e halter looks better on me so decided to buy tt.but bad news:tts e last 1 when i went back again after e outlet at taka mango dun have it.it was loose lor though it was xs size. think kena stretch till loose liao.. luckily i din buy. den later went to padang there to listen to e linkin park's concert. e shopping centre there have another mango! haha.. den went in saw my orange halter! last piece again but still.. its in better condition dan e previous 1. n e cashier looked like 1 of my nco in kc ncc. my sis fren. wanted to ask her whether she's ex-kcian but nah.. nvm.

later went padang there listen to linkin park lor.my long time 'penpal' was there too n her fren is a member of e club behind e pandang! so heng. first time met her after 6 5 long yrs! she 'ang mo ang mo' type(in mass com. leh) eng v g wor..ok.. den we went into e club hoping to c e concert from behind. but my fren couldnt get in.. so i went in myself..=( at first we wetn to e roof top but it was too crowded liao so we went 1lvl dwn where her fren said we can get a better view. true enuff n there was not many ppl there.though we were like directly behind e stage couldnt c anything.. there was a screen which we could view them from. it wasnt facing us but we could 'c thru it' if u know wat i mean.. if not nvm. den received a call frm dan from outside. a stranger actually gave his tix to him 4 him to go in! lucky him! e 'tix' was actually a band tt goes ard ur hand, so he sort of took it out n transfer it to him. he wanted me to go in instead but since i was in e club already n he was outside, i asked him to go ahead.yup.. my so called 'penpal' left early coz of her curfew so juz left me alone.=(

after e concert go meet dan. he took some nice pics inside.his fren who bought e tix to e concert kena caught e thing (4got wat its called) they use to pluck or strum e guitar n 1 of e drum sticks! cool~!

today damn happy lor.. shop till v shiok! haha...

Li.di.ya turned back time on 2:21:00 PM.

last nite went devil's alone with e girl ivy.. not bad..she took care of me.. her frens were there too.. a fun bunch..ai ling n lynn last min dun wanna go..hai...waste my sms. enjoyed myself.i muz admit tt i m not a gd drinker.. after a glass of beer my head spin liao.. damn high man! den drank a bit more.. dan came to accompany me... so ivy left 1st n we stayed till 5am there n later waited 4 bus to go home... at least i was still wide awake coz i had no time to slp! lucky me.. coz i gotta go straight to tp 4 my orientation @ sch.. zzz...

different class from koon ling.. =( no company.. so at e lecture hall? sat beside 2 guys.. at first tot they frenly but after tt really turned crappy lor..zzz... well at least i have frens liao.. den during n after lunch toked a bit to e girls.. have 1 kawaii girl in my class n another girl who looks quiet n e smile is so damn sweet! ah~ still have other girls too la.. not bad looking de leh all e girls.. e guys.. hai.. a few not bad looking though.. but not all leh. =P 1 look kinda nice leh... den like face look familiar..hmm.. din like e games lor.. damn stupid.. well actually i nv liked playing games..den when going home tt time played blow wind blow? kena do forfeit. >:( coz of a stupid guy dunno come from where took e seat behind me which i wanted to sit.den another 2 of my classmates? sit liao.. so left me all alone there. damn mahlu man.. gotta do e 'coconut thingy' u c in indian movies with another indian guy.. dunno how come he also kena la.. watever! hai.. after they release us i faster siam ah! but i really have to say this ah.. those ppl's songs or wat ah damn sick de lor... zzz... tomolo go sch take timetable den i go off liao.. dun wanna stay back 4 e stupid games man.. think gonna get wet n dirty...eee...

Li.di.ya turned back time on 7:28:00 PM.

last nite went devil's bar damn early.. coz free entry b4 8.but ai ling + me reached there at 8.10 still free...heng ah.free drinks too coz her frens r there. hehe.. damn sian ma..nuting to do so kept drinking (when i was in sch. v sian..i will drink from my water bottle too.funny hor..tts y sometimes by drinking jiu full liao.haha.no need eat..)..drank a few glasses in less den half an hr felt a little tipsy liao.e feeling is like u know wat is happening but u have little control..hai.. damn boring lor.. coz ai ling was bz with her frens n her makeup course mates so i was practiacally alone. -.- she was bz flirting with her course mate fren too. -.- .. not bad looking la but..haiyo..nuting to say...well at least i enjoyed e live band there..not bad.den managed to get dan n fren to come accompany me.they got in free man! haha.. lucky them. long story la.. b4 they arrived,i was at e sit listening to e live band..there was this pretty gal(25 yrs old) with sharp features flawless skin i would say?..was rite infront of me with a guy.(dunno bf or wat la..) she looked at me n smiled.so c she so frenly smile back lor..den she walked to me n said 'hi', how old m i, n i look so cute.. keke.. watever! den pinch pinch my nose so many times.. den at 1 pt of time.she said she is a les! touch touch a bit.. den said again tt she was kidding.. o.0..hmm.. who knows eh..y would a female come up to another?*glup*.n she seemed to b a little drunk.but she kept saying she is alrite..keke.. but overall she is damn sweet. really like look after me lor coz she c i "so young" n sitting there alone( was actually sitiing with ai ling's guy frens too la but nuting to say yo them leh).asked me whether i was alrite (well was alittle drunk n felt damn slpy) ,offered me e glass of vodka-7up she was drinking from...din wanna reject her offer so i juz took 2 slips.n she was like looking after me..sitting beside me 4 some time since ai ling was bz flirting ard..-.-.. she damn sweet lor..n v pretty as well! damn wasted if she is a les...(actually she look a bit like it la.hmmm... should i 'gao' les with her if she is 1? still thinking eh...) den ya.. we actually exchanged no. ...she asked 4 my no. so anything lor.. dun mind knowing her better.. =) after tt 3plus go eat supper at 201 den go home slp liao lor!zzzz.... got free transport again.. no need take cab..hehehe. gd gd gd!

Li.di.ya turned back time on 11:27:00 PM.

F.I.R. 飞儿乐团-LYDIA

Lydia 迷离的眼眶
为何流浪 心碎的海洋

受了伤 连微笑都彷徨
Gypsy女郎 为谁而唱

你会看见雾 看见云 看见太阳
纪念和大地重复着悲伤

他走了带不走你的天堂
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下
总会有个地方 等待爱飞翔

Lydia 幸福不在远方
开一扇窗 许下愿望

你会感受爱 感受恨 感受原谅
生命总不会只充满悲伤


woo~ now i have a song same as my name! haha..not a bad song too

tue off so went to c ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF E SPOTLESS MIND (www.eternalsunshine.com )with bowen didi. not a bad show though its kinda messy at first..din know wats it toking about.gd thing at e end of e show i still managed to understand e story.like e way its being shot.v different from other movies.v touching story.v gd show.teared in e cinema. after e movie slacked at e mac outside Lido. met up with neo 4 a short while to buy sandals since i was at orchard too.den came to dad's plcae coz my pc is working again! went home to bathe den was ready to sleep when 93.3fm was having this topic bout relationships..breaking up n blah. gd timing eh..juz when i wanna slp. -.- was thinking bout things again n couldnt fall aslp.its been months since i have slpless nite n now again.. -.- ..its been some time i havent 'tong kuai de ku' too.. was thinking of doing tt (sadist ma) when i remembered i have to wake up at 4.45am n its already 2plus! so i played a dance cd to keep me distracted.need some slp man! din fall aslp till 3plus.how i know? i was checking my hp 4 e time e whole nite!was thinking wth.. no time 4 me to slp man!hai.. go work sure sian de..

so wed liao.. last nite wanted to go clubbing so badly @ devil's bar tonite since its ladies nite anyway but din in e end. met up with dan slack awhile outside. o ya.. on e way meeting him,was crossing e road walking to tamp blk 201 when i saw a car on e wrong lane at e traffic light!luckily there were no cars going towards his directions since it was red light at e junction.dunno how e driver did tt.. mayb turned to e wrong direction when coming out of e carpark.but damn super lor. after got to e other side of e road,kept looking back to c how is he gonna get to e rite lane but i din manage to.well.. a bit e stupid to juz stand there n c rite. den juz nice..dan was behind me.. when i was looking back he tot i saw him le.. haha.. but actually i was looking at e car. he din know wat happened till i told him.later went east pt e starbucks slack.tried to get Lynn to join us too,all e way frm sengkang but din manage to..even after more than 1/2hr on e phone with her!(luckily i free incoming man..haha)tt was already 1plus liao.hai.. should have called her earlier eh.. ya lor.. a bit stupid to take a cab(with midnite charge) dwn eh in e middle of e nite juz to slack with us. in e end went dwnstairs my blk de playground play with my guitar which i went home to take. realised he lied to me about not knowing how to play e guitar when he started play some songs. =0 mouth really opened man..he damn pro ah.b4 tt i still teach him how to play some simple notes.-.- zhen shi 'ban men nong fu' ah... juz by listening to e tune of e song he know wat notes to play le.. tts wat i wanna do too! need more practice man! but gd gd.. now i know where to get a teacher liao..hehe... did tt till about 4.30 when bth le den go home slp.. keke...yup den today off again tts y so free..online here to kill time.gonna add some more things to my webby too..so look out 4 it!

Li.di.ya turned back time on 5:29:00 PM.

saturday wasnt really my day. tried to get into zouk but cant! =( den dan's fren kena sent home because they found me using her's to get in... felt really guilty.. decided to go home after sitting there 4 bout an hr... no mood to go anywhere.. M.U or watever... so took a cab home.. at least my police fren kept me company on my hp.. though he was having duty he still managed to... keep him a little better after e chat.. about his married life n blah... he has been a policeman 4 10yrs already! wow!

yup... now after my work liao.. go home slack le! but b4 i do tt.. let me tell u wat happened last wk.. told u bout e 'Eugene' ... so.. he isnt e 'butch' after all! e.. ok.. e 'tomboy' is actually ____ (sandra la)ok now i 4get e name..( i will fill in e blank when it comes to my mind.. n yes..its a girl's name... how i know she is not 'Eugene' is when e real Eugene came with e delivery man to send e stocks. coz they said e boss(which is eugene) is coming... funny things happen here man... on e way meet quite a few interesting ppl.. e passengers. here's one: i dunno how,tt they have e idea of using e trays which r meant 4 e cleaners to place e wrappers..blah..(rubbish la..) to order food! c liao also wanna laugh...haha... hmm.. cant remember e rest liao but damn fun ah... remember le den tell u... e ppl i hate to serve r usually e jap. coz went they speak eng, i wun b able to understand them n so do they! hai.. ok.. theyr waiting 4 me to go home le..tata! i will b back!

Li.di.ya turned back time on 3:19:00 PM.

damn tired today! slept 4 only an hr (or even less) n i had to go to work.. zzz... my eyes couldnt open man....kept blinking them coz my contacts were irritating my eyes... last nite was out e whole nite n got back home only at about 4am... kinda pt-less 4 me to slp coz i will b working at 7 n had to get out of e house at 6..so i take my time.. bathe... play with hp a little... last nite went mdm wong..too early le.. not many ppl so we later went Music Underground... they played groove coverage songs all e while on this particular nite (they were having this DJ jason? v.s G.C thingy..)..not bad.. but too much techno is not 4 me... tot tt place is a little more 'high class' ..but saw quite a few ah bengs..n ah lians.. n wat made me mad e most was tt 1 bartender tried to b funny or something asked me m i an ah lian.. >:( i hate it when ppl calls me tt... n i gave him e angry look n said no. den he said 'u muz b an ah huey den!'-.- .... i gave him tt look again n walked away... hello... i din dress like 1 k...i was juz wearing a translucent top fron Double Index with a black tube inside ok... it was juz plain n normal.. n yes.. e songs too techno liao so ai ling n frens left first...so did those 2 i worked with at bugis n their frens...left me n Lynn.. kinda sian but it was gonna b 3am so tot juz stay till den... n we did. b4 we left met 2 kinda young chaps... so juz exchanged no. ..(hehe.. so next time have more khakis to do things together eh..) ya.. den took a cab home... now i m juz at e airport typing this... better get going... meeting ai ling again with sis n her fren lennon to watch Eternal Sunshine Of e Spotless Mind... hope i dun fall aslp in e cinema! =X o ya.. UTT (e mtv vj)BOUGHT a SMOOTHIE FROM ME JUZ NOW!!!! bought a small very berry gd... not bad looking eh.. but complexion not v gd la...(as if mine is... ....) e other nite saw a china ping pong player who represents Sg..(his bf plays badminton de.. from indonesia..) ... 4 got wats her name.. but to bad we were closed so in e end din get anything from us.... too bad!

Li.di.ya turned back time on 3:19:00 PM.