Taurus: The Full Moon is in your sign. Let it all out and don't hold back.**
having bad mood again... feeling kinda low. everything is coming back to me.. yes..AGAIN. all bcoz of my fren. told me about his things which reminded me of mine. kill me man kill me. i m seriously sick n tired of this.
i have alot to say actually but i juz dunno how to start.nvm...dun think i will b including them here today. nobody can help me n i will b kinda repeating myself anyway...4get it.
god... my head is spinning.
i feel..STRESSED.bored.MAXED OUT.hurt.ANGRY.confused.MISUNDERSTOOD.disappointed.TRAPPED.frustrated.LONELY.numb.EXCLUDED. blahhhh................
im not an actress. this is e way i m. u r c-ing e real me. so take it or leave it. "coz this life. is too short. to live it juz. 4 u. when u feel. so powerless. wat r u gonna do? say wat u want."
Left outside alone- Anastacia
Left broken empty in despair Wanna breath can? find air Thought you were sent from up above But you and me never had love So much more I have to say Help me find a way And I wonder if you know How it really feels To be left outside alone When it? cold out here Well maybe you should know Just how it feels To be left outside alone To be left outside alone I tell ya.. All my life I?e been waiting For you to bring a fairytale my way Been living in a fantasy without meaning It? not okay I don? feel safe I need to pray Why do you play me like a game? Always someone else to blame Careless, helpless little man Someday you might understand There? not much more to say But I hope you find a way
TUE:
Taurus: Vote with your wallet. Put your money into places you support.**
went orchard with ros n angeline. supposed to go john little to interview 4 e cashier position but backed out e last min. in e end went to Bedazzled-a costume jewellery shop. CHEN GONG! starting work this sat. not bad. den later at far east there guess who i saw. its sg singer HUANG YI DA with his fren!.. ok la.. not bad la... not really crazy bout him also. 4 dinner. went to aljunid? met my sis n dad eat vegetarian food. -.- tt was my first n last pls. its HORRIBLE. was DISGUSTED man. e meat tasted like e cream which doc would give 4 ur chicken pox lor. =P~~~~~~ pui! how could any1 enjoy eating tt? YUCK! if it's not 4 my dad's bday i wouldnt have gone there! after dinner, was waiting 4 my bus with my sis at e bus stop when we saw a... sort of a "tim sum" coffeeshop or wat. den my sis bought me an egg tart juz in time when my bus came. so sweet of her. it was damn nice man. gonna go back 4 more next time. another sweet thing my sis did was tt she called me on my hp juz to ask where i was sitting on e double decker coz her bus juz passed mine. hehe... den at e rd junction managed to spot her b4 her bus turns rite. was waving to her kinda frantically when i noticed e guy siting 2 seats behind me peeping at me behind a girl's head,trying to c wth i was doing.. haha... who cares. =D nuting means more than my sis. =) not even my so called "frens"...
went dwn to changi aloha chalet. n i almost got lost. got kinda fed up man. changed a few buses n walked quite a distance to get to tt stupid place. if not with e help of e bus drivers i would have gone home! den ya.. sort of regretted going there..(again) did nuting much there.. c tv.. played 2-4games of dai dee. learnt a bit of majong from ta ming while they were playing. yup. den nuting else. got kinda bored when they e rest were playing wrestling (so sorry tt i m not into those ok...) taking pics or watever shit.couldnt slp. in e end couldnt ta han anymore went to call my TT FREN to tok. -.- i know i shouldnt have done tt. den after tt was thinking of meeting up 4 breakfast since his work place was ard tt area too.. but in e end i din give him morning call or anything coz was thinking.. aiya.. wat 4.. if he really wanna go no need morning call also can get up de ma.. den 4get it. let him slp lor. after tt call they decided to play "TO1(used our tutorial group no. instead of sg) Idol". ok.. i admit. it was kinda cool n fun. we had e interview part n performing part. 4 e interview part e guys really looked like slyvester. with e "i will rock e idol world!" n tt hand signal he would always do. haha.. damn pro lor. 4 e performace part all we had to do was to select a song from e mp3 player n hold on to e air-con remote, pretending it was e mic. den we juz had to open our mouth n look as if we were singing. everything was recorded with e digi cam 4 later viewing. cool eh... all of this ended at about 5 n it was bedtime! at tt pt of time actually our cha;et phone rang. 0.0 suprisingly... without any1 knowing our chalet no. .. not even e other classmates.. n no1 called out using tt phone.. yet. *GLUP funny funny...
WED:
Taurus: Judge based on what you have seen, not on what you have heard.**
after every1 had woke up n bathed, we decided to walk to changi village 4 lunch. -.- seriously.. it was damn stupid to go buy 5packs of maggi mee lor 4 those 2 days b4 e bbq actually starts. 5x5=25packets. too much le lor. as if gonna have tt 4 their 3meals -.-. i rather use it 4 tidbits lor. -.- watever! in e end i din have lunch coz gonna meet my fren 4 tt too.adios man... yup. i actually went home. n i m seriously broke coz of this stupid thingy!
so in e afternoon slacked alot..played with my hp cam. e different modes. den sort of used e photoimpression to put a few pics together. it made me started to think again.. Y I M NOT IN DESIGN COURSE!!!!! argh... sickening..
at nite again was on e phone with my "auntie angie" again. we crapped alot. he wanted to change his msn so we began to have funny ideas. he was thinking of this song "lets get retarded" so we came up with a lot of stupid things with e word "retarded". ok la.. we were damn lame. this is how lame i can get if i m in a gd mood, n i know i m included in e conversation or wat. so slept ard 5 again...-.-
THUR:
Taurus: If you are going to take action, act toward peace, not conflict.**
slept till ard 1plus den i had to get ready to meet my fellow classmates to go 4 e bbq liao.. so basically did nuting much but eat n c tv. it's not tt i dun wanna help ok. watever la.. but kinda alrite.. had a bit of e "bonding" time with my classmates whom i seldom tok to. so left tt place at 10plus with john. though weng n py were stayin there n was thinking mayb stay over also not tt bad since they r there. but i stopped myself from doing tt. coz i dun wanna later regret again 4 making e wrong decision n i would b cursing myself again... well they can enjoy themselves w/o me.. it makes no difference whether i m there or not...take up space only.
i m like a puzzle. solve me. but no1 does tt coz no1 has e patience. every1 is changing. every1 is going after things tt they think would satisfy them which i think is more physically than mentally. every1 is trying to b some1 they r not., following e foot steps of others. mayb its wrong 4 me to use "every1" here.. hmm...
i may seem boring to u coz u havent really discovered e real me. its juz e surface u r looking at. tts wat most of u ppl r doing. mayb i m missing out lots of things while being a "boring person", but i sometimes think tt 'jian dan jiu shi mei'... simplicity is a virtue. so while i m being tt... some ppl r after fame, popularity(i m not toking bout celebrities here)...mayb they get a satisfaction from tt i dunno. mayb tts a gd thing.. making e most out of their lives while on earth. i dunno. weell... this is e way i m.. take it or leave it. i need no idiots to give me their stupid comments n expect me to change n b like them.b some1 whom i m not. no thanks man. u juz get out of my way will do. i still quite like e way i m.
i need some1 who i can trust. all i need is sincerity(meaning: The quality or condition of being sincere; genuineness, honesty, and freedom from duplicity.)
Li.di.ya turned back time on 4:23:00 AM.
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Taurus: Even though you remember well, that doesn't mean you should. Let go.**
o well.. today will b slacking at home again.. no programs nuting.. n tomolo is my class chalet le.. still deciding whether to go or not. really damn broke. but who knows.. i may b going.. =P i should b going la huh.. o.0 argh!!! but i gonna "kill" myself if it turns out to b like ros's chalet e other time.. =( ahh!! fan ah!
SUN:
Taurus: The next four weeks are the most climactic time of year for you.**
slept at 5+..6 in e morning! siao liao.. chatted with my frens in msn till e sun gonna come out liao. was clearing some doubts or misunderstanding.. kinda alrite.. at least i can get it over n done with it...phew~ so now feeling kinda calm liao.. nuting much 4 me to think about e whole thing liao.. n i dun have to feel guilty or anything anymore. but still.. its a bit wasted la.. well.. he was e 1 who gave up..so.. yup... not my fault. but still..feeling a bit "mao dun".. hmm.. n also wanna thank "auntie angie" 4 keeping me company n "solving" my prob. haha..(only he n know wat we did..=X) damn cute la.. he gave tt name to himself de... like 1 of e teens/teenage mag de column like tt. really nice toking to him. every nite when i c him online nv fails to send me mp3... i need songs i juz go to him man..haha..
last nite bought my e600 le! WOOHOO~ kinda stupid la coz went to my cousin's house 4 dinner too, den he lent me(or my aunt) his n3100.. but hehe.. juz couldnt wait. tm had a samsung rd show so juz went there after dinner. e free gift was juz a leather case(which was more like denim man..) n a $100 GUESS voucher(coz i renewed my contract?) but its like wat can i buy? e things so ex. anyway... i will juz go dwn to e shops n check out their stuffs. wanted to get e e800 but its more ex.. so.. o well.. e600 will do. hai.. damn scared tt Isetan actually did try to call me but couldnt get me..hai.. stupid phone la.. =( better not ok.. =X
ya.. whenever i go to my this cousins house, his family nv fails to make me laugh. though some things they say may sound rude, with tt kind of seriousness on their face, however, they r juz joking ard. cute family i should say. funny bunch of ppl.e 3 sons n e dad, always 'ding zui' with 1 another 1.. haha.. e mum not so much la huh. i learnt this phrase "guo fen"(too much ah?) from e dad haha.. he's damn damn gd cook man... he likes to cook alot.. n every sun both my aunts would go his house 4 dinner.. most of e family gatherings r also held there. years ago i nv liked him. coz.. i dunno how to say.. mayb i was kinda rude too la.. nv really greeted them much whenever i go there. hmm.. n his elder son is getting married next sun. not sure i will b going still coz i not close to them anyway.. will b really weird if i do go.. hmm...
den suddenly i remembered a damn funny thing tt happen on tt day i went cartel to eat with my sis n aunt. JOKE OF E DAY MAN!!!
here's it: we took a bus back after dinner alrite... den when my sis was scanning her ez link, e driver said: "ting bu dao leh.." den she scanned again.. then e machine says: "entry ok" so alrite lor. so when we were on e bus.. my sis was like saying about e uncle being deaf.. how loud he wan it to b.. "add a speaker la..woofer.." we were like laughing away.. den there was 1 part, my aunt said: "aiya.. coz ur ez link in ur wallet ma.. tts y softer.." once we heard wat she said. we both shocked 0.0! den we laughed out heads off. after wondering wats so funny, she realised wat she said wasnt making sense. we were like: "E SOND DOES NOT COME FROM E EZ LINK CARD IN E WALLET. ITS E M.A.C.H.I.N.E!" haha...
really joke of e day man...
Li.di.ya turned back time on 6:16:00 PM.
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Saturday, October 23, 2004
Taurus: Appreciate other people's needs, but don't change your life for them.**
ok.. today dun have any plans yet. daniel jio me go Chinablack but bet i cant get in...wait till i m 18 next yr k. guess i shall rest at home today. damn 'xiong' ah if keep going out spend $.
actually i m not so keen on going clubbing too. i prefer going to a pub n juz chill out.
n yes.. i got my results 4 my exams yesterday via sms. when i was at sentosa... -.- rite timing eh.. but anyway.. I PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS! no As though.. now think i 'dui de qi wo ah pa' le... but also.. this is juz e basics n i already have difficulties le.. dunno how i can 'ta han' till yr 3 man... hai.. sian..
argh.... i hate it when no1 asks me out while i m jobless.. but wait till i got a job..-.- sickening u know.. den i will keep thinking bout tt person..hai.. n i have to keep reminding myself tt he is not worth it..
i wun allow any1 to treat me as a 'dai ti ping'...
nowadays i think there r more n more nice eng songs liao.. "e reason".. "look wat u've done".."blurry"(everythings so blurry, every1's so fake..)... "i dun wanna know"(i dun wanna know,if u're playin me... keep it on e low, coz my heart cant take it anymore...if u're creepin,pls dun let it show..).. e lyrics r so damn POWER! n at last i gotta find this song.. "when u look at me" by christina milian. nice!
here's e lyrics:
Tell me who do you think you seeYou're standing in your corner looking out on meYou think Im so predictableTell me who do you think I amLooks can be deceivingBetter guess againTell me what you seeWhen you look at meYou're probably thinking that I want those thingsCash, cars diamond ringsThinkin on my side the grass is greenBut you don't know where I have beenI could be a wolf in disguiseI could be an angel in your eyesNever judge a book by its cover
I could be a crook or your loverI could be the one or the otherIf you'll look beneath you'll discoverYou just don't know me!You look at your neighbor thinking what a guy Cuz he's got a 9-5And I bet that you don't realizeHe stalks you while you sleep at nightYet you're scared of the homeless guyThink he's gonna wanna start a fightNever judge a book by its cover
(Talk) Now tell me, who do you think I am? Huh?You don't even know meWell did you think about this
Li.di.ya turned back time on 4:11:00 PM.
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Taurus: Relationships take an obsessive turn. Don't lose your self-control.**
went sentosa with e same gang again.. this time juz e 4 of us.. it could have more fun if we had more company.. a beach ball.. n if e weather wasnt tt bad. no sun 4 us to sun tan lor! nvm.. better than staying at home ba.. still... played a little bit of 'soccer' with e ball we borrowed from a group of ppl.. run a bit tired liao. really long time since i last exercised man..din do much actually.. but nvm la.. relac relac lor.. after tt went to habour front walk walk a bit..look 4 volley ball.. den dinner..
after tt we headed to orchard le.. again.. 4 wat? pool lor..-.-cine de.. not bad la.. like e place myself.. coz they actually play songs..(techno songs.. only once kena chi.. chi also not bad ah.. kinda prefer tt) den not so sian also ma.. wa.. if we keep doing this, gonna get broke soon man. sg also not much things to do... think ktv n pool places r earning big bucks man.. coz think these r e places tt alot of ppl r visiting nowadays...
den home sweet home le.. when we got out of cine den realised it was raining.. think tonight slp sure shiok!
THURS:
Taurus: You may not feel up to the job. Trust that you are indeed qualified.**
went shopping with kelly at orchard.. was suppose to hunt for my bag but in e end still bought clothes..-.- but overall was fun.. saw 'a suit' kinda clothes.. pants de.. damn nice lor.. style man.. but its ard $60.. but i cant spend too much le coz not working =( nvm.. juz go drop by n try it e next time i m in town. decided to get e esprit bag again... after kelly n ros said its nice n my sis n aunt think otherwise.. hmm o well i m buying ok! ya.. went scotts isetan to interview. hope tt i will get picked. kinda like e environment.. but e thing is tt 4 pt-mers max working days /wk is only 4. den think 6 hrs/day..-.- think cant earn much lor..hai..den at nite some1 juz spoilt my day juz like tt. met an idiotic guy..watched Manchurian Candidate with him.. damn piss me off man.. give me attitude.. but sorry.. i m not those we will get affected easily lor.. by wat u say n wat u think i should do. i do watever i want k! i live my own life! i was so damn no mood le after e show..so i decided to go home straight. after tt sms-me ask if i would like to keep contact.. i was liike.. dun think so.. u spoilt my day man. later replied me with something like: "think u r e kinda girl i would fall for". i din reply. i was thinking to myself...: wth i care about tt.. i m not interested in u man... bored me only..n turn me off man. so in e end had to take cab home.. waste my money only.. damn u u stupid guy. din have much cash with me.. so paid e driver with my $13 in my wallet... short of less than $2. n he was like nvm girl.. so late liao.. n he insisted on dropping me under my blk. so nice of him..=)
ya.. e movie at e begining was kinda boring lor.. couldnt catch wat they were saying.. a bit chim.. was cursing tt guy man 4 making me c tt movie( ya i was kinda pissed off tt when we met he juz wanna go c movie lor..-.- i was thinking juz sit dwn n chit chat la.. siao 1.. waste my time) .. but e later part became a bit interesting/exciting liao.. ok la.. e show.. so so only..
WED:
so.. kena SACKED today. coz i din go to work. couldnt wake up. den was liek hack! told her i cant make it even later in e afternoon coz i was gonna have dinner with my aunt n sis. ok la.. mayb my working attitude is like shit la...but their ppl also cock up de la... say i off den wat again.. nvm la.. din wanna cont le too.. damn stupid lor.. do tt kind of job.. learn nuting de..not much interactions with customer too, cant improce communications skills..(haha.. mayb i think too much la..but i think e past few jobs i did r better lor..)zzzz... i shall look 4 another 1 den.. den ya.. at last gotta eat my Cartel! hai.. gotta try to spend less le since i not working now...
Li.di.ya turned back time on 11:44:00 PM.
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Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Taurus: The big picture will help you put your worries into perspective.**
had been a long time since i enjoyed myself this much...
juz now.. or yesterday... went kbox at suntec with my 4 other classmates n sang 4 5-WHOLE-HRS! SHIOK!!!! so damn fun..we should do this more often man..haha..den later went arcade awhile 4 a few games den decided to go dwn to somerset area 4 dinner.. andy intro us to a jap curry shop 4 dinner. so... got to try e jap curry rice tt many have been toking about.. not bad la.. but mayb i still prefer normal curry tt is spicy de. o.0 but e service there damn bad lor.. asked 4 extra rice n curry they say dun have le(mayb understandable coz they closing soon).. but when i asked 4 more water they sort of ignored us lor.. den leo gotta serve us with a container filled with plain water(or tap water) on a table at e corner... n i was like: "self service ah?" 1 of e guy working there heard lor.. but like wth.. isnt tt their job? damn rude lor.. 'mei li mao'. service damn poor man.o ya.. saw another of my "neighbour" whom i have juz met up with last fri at e curry shop! damn 'qiao' eh...
so after dinner..'chi bao bao' le.. went cine de kpool. played 4 about 3hrs+. SHIOK! leonard damn pro man.. after much difficulty managed to win him at 1 of e games. e ta ming also gd... n could c tt kelly improved alot liao ah.. hehe... well done! its been a long time since i played le man.... den played till 12+ c a bit late le den all decided to go home le. while paying @ e counter, we kena shock lor coz e guy said we gotta pay $80+. siao! play pool play till so ex.. how can it b.. but anyway.. we paid n left. then in e lift andy was like calculating.. e rate @ tt time was like $10/hr if i m not wrong after rounding up.. so e most played for 3hrs. den 2tables. so should b ard 60+. den found it a bit weird.. so went back to ask. n true enuff.. he calculated wrongly. think he counted as 3 tables or wat. -.- n we like paid $25 more lor... if we din go back he 'tan dio' man (earned it man) wa.. e andy clever la hor... so gd gd.. we used e $ to take cab back lor.. heng ah....
in e cab damn funny... 2 different cabs were travelling side by side at a pt of time.. n both glass windows were opened. shouting here n there... haha.. den e last part where e merc taxi over took us ta ming threw his sweet at e other cab de window.. but too bad leo closed it le.. lol.. damn siao man.
so 3 of us sharing e same cab (since we stay kinda close to each other) went tamp 201 4 supper. i had e 'dino milo'? n a plain roti prata(again.. ).. damn full man.. tot eat 4 fun de.. but even drinking e milo i already full le lor... so big. ordered tt coz i was curious to try it ma. but shiok la. eat e milo powder. he added alot lor. fat fat le.. pimples gonna pop up again.. den later home sweet home liao... n here i m.. online..hehe...
tomolo was suppose to off de... but e aunty last min ask me to go back.. dunno going not..coz i already planned to go 4 dinner with aunt n sis le.. but..hai.. n shit! i dun have her hp no. how to call her to ask c if i could work till about 5 or 6 not.. die. damn lazy to go man. but if i dun go whole afternoon also wasted.. coz no programs. bleah! mayb i will go there first n den ask her lor. if not i should b staying there till 10 b..zzz... =( boohoohoo... so sad... cant go eat with them le. but think should b able to la.. juz say i really gotta go lor... hai.. think of it also sian la..
Li.di.ya turned back time on 3:33:00 AM.
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Taurus: Defy established authority. Make your own rules. Be a rebel.**
so late le n i m still online chatting away with my classmate.. gotta wake up 4 work later too.. zzzz...
i dunno whether i should b feeling angry or wat.. but its kind gd 4 us to tok things out.. though not much.. though i have more things to say n ask.. but think he roughly know wat i think about this whole thing. asked him if he thinks tt i m a spare tyre or wat. guess he is still puzzled y i think tt way... but told him i find it weird with this on n off thingy.. with him coming back to me every now n den... think u would feel exactly e same as me. e things he say.. e way he toks... think he is juz too gd with words liao.. know how to sweet tok. but dun think tts gonna change my mind liao.. though some part of me wanna go back... but i seriously hate those who sweet tok with me.. so jia.. i juz think tt he lacks e company of a girl(or gf) at e moment.. tts y. i wanna ask him y de decided to break after those 3days.. but i couldnt do it. now think of it. mayb there isnt any need le.. no pt.. i have lost my trust in him. he could have given any stupid excuses anyway. he juz wanna 'pain' a xiao mei mei like me.. NO WAY MAN! prob coz of e age gap...
hmm... but i m juz curious anyway.. c wat kind of STUPID excuse he would give.. i shall ask him since he is still online..
so..ok.. he din know wat i wanted. i din know wat i wanted too. guess i m too complicated. too complex 4 ppl to understand. watever!
nuff nuff...
yesterday was a damn sian day... hope today will b a better 1.. gotta plan 4 programs after my work man...go window shopping alone at far east also not a bad idea. hmm.. really gotta stop buying clothes man... =P bleah!
mayb will b joining ai ling to work at e small ktv pub with her..$7/hr leh.. not bad la..a few hrs only la.. free free also can sing ktv there or play pool...haha... i will juz try out a few days first den c how...
Li.di.ya turned back time on 3:44:00 AM.
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Saturday, October 16, 2004
Taurus: You can be sympathetic to others; just don't take on their pain.**
zzzz...-.- juz woke up from my slp...though i had about 7hrs of slp.. it felt as if it was juz a short nap.. still damn tired.think coz of those sms tt have disturbed my beauty slp.. argh! still thinking whether to meet my fren not.. long time nv c her n chit chat le.. really wanna catch up with her.. tok about sch n stuffs like tt. but damn lazy to travel far.. dun mind if she comes to tamp..hehe..
had a long day yesterday man.. here's wat i did.
FRI:Taurus: Let your guard down. You'll gain instead of lose. Trust others.**
yup.. it was juz another boring day at work today. hmm.. but it become more interesting after tt.. hehe.. so suprised tt my sis was actually so 'wu xim' to call me when she was at orchard. she knew i was working there coz i bumped into her at taka e other time when i was buying dinner.. so qiao eh.. met up with her n lennon n another girl to get myself a pair of new flip flops.( i need some suggestions ok..) at last! damn sick of my this old 1.. so 'lan' liao... juz bought a simple 1.. den walk ard far east.. den to heeren to collect my top there.. all thanks to my helpful "neighbour" MOSEY! haha.. helping me to print e online $10off voucher n passing it to me after his sch. thanks alot man! (though he printed it wrongly)felt kinda relieved when e lady agreed to take it. heng ah.. if not i dunno how many times i muz go dwn to e shop to collect my stuff...
den later.. my sis n frens wanted to go cineleisure de cartel or wat to have a drink...but so sad tt i couldnt join them coz i already meeting my fren le.. =( tot of not meeting my fren de but since he is at orchard le so.. hai.. too bad. they r really a fun bunch of man..especially e lennon..(dunno y.. yesterday when i call her name always call my classmate de name de.. leonard..haha.. sounds almost e same ma..) so cute.. haha.. n everytime when i c her she nv fails to say: "y u shorter now ah?" haha.. though tt is not a compliment la... >=( ..still cute la! sometimes even 'butches' r so irresistible..wahaha.. =X
yup.. so met my fren.. he suggested to go to Acid Bar or wat to chll out but on our way there... we passed by Rouge. n those guys there were like: "come in come in.. free entry today" so we were like.. ok.. anything.. since both of us have not been in there b4. like e atmosphere in there.. cosy n stuff. seriously a nice place to chill out. this is my first time there but definately not e last. love it. e waitress who served ask was like 'kou chi' haha.. seemed to b nervous or wat.. haha.. as if she juz started this job not long. we were like there cooling her dwn. so left tt "pub-like" area we were sitting at n explored e other side of e place. like e service there. was carrying all my 'barang barang' n feeling a bit 'paiseh' then found out they actually have a counter to leave ur stuff there. not bad eh... yup.. think there is a small dance floor there..(couldnt quite figure out coz it was totally empty.. but tt should b it la huh..mayb its still too early..hmm..) not long later left e place n headed to Devils Bar coz his frens were there.. i was like so reluctant to go coz i wore till so 'sui bian' cfm kena check de ma..(those polo-t material but its a halter with collar..so a bit e better la huh..) but it seemed tt he wanted to go there so much so anything lor. anyway.. i was wrong about e checking of id part.
we were Q-ing there n started to panic. thinking of wat to say when they ask 4 my id. wat ic no. i should say to them if they were to ask. but when it was our turn to get in, e bouncer was like: "ok.. next is a...COUPLE." haha.. was like hmm... think most prob they dun really go check a couple's id.. moreover my fren was like wearing kinda nice.. long sleeve shirt.. looked like an executive or something... so guess it did help a little too. =D den when we were like gonna pay 4 e entrance fee at e counter he saw his pri sch classmate.. so.. it was FREE! ok it felt kinda weird clubbing n dancing with some1 u hardly know, n i also prefer it to b in a bigger group. so i was like tt.. hmm.. "wat should i do" blah... like a block of wood there. din really enjoy myself though e DJ was like playing some of e songs i like..shortly after i got in they were playing "Left Out Side Alone" liao.. den "Fuck It".. den "SUPERSTAR"! i was like WOOHOO~! but... hmm... =( sorry if i had spoilt his nite.
so bout 1 hr later we left e place (again... ok.. kinda stupid... luckily it was free..hehe..) den walked to cineleisure to join les n his colleague 4 a movie..(1 of them still not bad looking eh..decent looking type again.. haha..but 4got e name... they 2 r a nice bunch too) c e 2046. ya.. b4 tt when we were leaving e pool place upstairs(which is opp a kbox) after their pool session. we saw 93.3fm de zhou cong qing.. same toot toot hair style i last saw him at tp.. YUCKS! ok.. back to e movie part.(o ya.. my fren actually went bavck to DB to accompany his frens..or ex-gf.. damn troublesome rite.. hai.. a bit guilty leh..) it was kind of a boring show lor! think worse than e Ladykiller.-.-zzzz... e story was something about love..wat most women r searching 4: eternal love or something like tt. wanting to have e man they love all to themselves. well i dun think they r being selfish here... who wants to share e man they love with other woman? hai... e show a bit e stupid lor.. tot it would b something like "infernal affairs" but no. seriously dunno wats e storyline is.. hai.. all u c is e life of a playboy(played by tony leong) blah.. dunno wat shit la! les's frens even fell aslp. every1 in e cinema felt e same way too. hai.. waste $ again... hai.. but dunno y.. actually cried... 0.0 a little. gotta admit tt some parts of e show did touch my heart.. how far some women could go to do things 4 e man they love wholeheartedly..to test his love 4 her..to keep him by her side..to get tt sense of security from him. totally no limit..pei fu pei fu..but when u know its time to give up.. its time to give up. some jerks juz dun deserve it. well.. mayb they have their own probs.. but still... they shouldnt give false hope,as if there still r chances.of him going back to her. hmm.. mayb not so bad afterall la..mayb its juz a bit draggy la... not as gd as wat we all expected.. a bit e more 'yi shu pian' ba.. chim chim de... chim chim also gd la.. let us do a bit of thinking...
quote from e movie: " Memories are just traces of tears" ... something like tt la...
know wat ppl from e past do when they have a secret? they would climb a mountain. go to a tree. dig a hole n wisper e secret into e hole n later cover it with mud. <---yup got tt from e movie as well. dun get tt part when they say when e ppl travel to 2046. they get to re-live e past, e memories, n nuting changes there. y nuting changes? hmm... n none of them actually leave tt place after going there. is it tt gd? like "heaven"? if this is 4 real.. i would like to check out tt place..haha..
there was this part when they said e robots on tt train to 2046 de reaction will become a bit 'chi dun' after some time... react(eg. cry) only 1hr later or even 1day. n i was thinking... m i like tt too? n y do we sometimes ask a question n nv get an ans? is it too scared/shy to ans it? trying to run away from it? dunno how to react? or wat? 4got wat they say inside e movie le... movies sometimes really teach us some things in life....
after movie me n my fren juz left for 7-11 to grab something to eat w/o them.. sat dwn awhile.. chit chat. know a bit more about him n his love life blah.. even at Rouge, e impression tt he gave me is tt he is man man who has a goal in life. know wat he is doing, wat he wants n wat to do to achieve them. has a really mature way of thinking. n it is something different to c some1 at e age of 22 is ready to settle dwn liao. can c tt he wanna b successful in life, a carrer n a family of his own . i m sure he is able to do it judging from his determination. hai...i m totally different. i m juz like a living zombie.. walking ard aimlessly in life. bleah. even though i din have much comments while he was toking away.. at least i lend a listening ear..
overall, really enjoyed myself...2 clubs in a nite... nv kena check.. hehe...woohoo~ luckily i m off today...
Li.di.ya turned back time on 5:48:00 PM.
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Thursday, October 14, 2004
Taurus: Legal situations are coming into focus. Take care of pending issues.**
my leh damn 'suan' now man.. tired ah!
really dunno should i work at fareast or cont to work at this place... if i go fareast i will earn $10 less/day coz e shops there closes earlier... so 1 month less 200 bucks! but was thinking i would prefer there coz it will b alittle bit more "quiet"? but i should b stayin here ba coz of e $.. these 2 months juz chiong la... more $ den more to spend also ma... hai...wat e heck... hai.. damn sick of c-ing so many students..hol now.. hai...
ya yesterday off.. did a bit of window shooping... knew tt i wun have any 'shou huo'.. but e last shop i went to..PapERdoLL have something tt i have been looking 4 a long time... know those "ang mo farmers" wear de? if u dunno wat i toking bout nvm.. ya.. i saw tt... but its e skirt ver. .... kinda like it.. n my fren says its nice.. but its $59! a bit ex lor...but din quite mind it la.. coz difficult to find ma.. den since have a pt job..'cong cong' myself lor.. den i remembered their webby have a $10 off voucher if u spnd above $60.. so when i was back today to try e size again.. i asked her whether i could use it lor.. $1 diff only.. so.. yeah.. she was cool about it.. hehe.. gd! so paid $49 4 it le... should b going dwn to collect it later... she helped me to alter a bit too.. but now e prob is tt how do i go print e stupid voucher? no printer at home..(argh.. should have moved it here.) tried to get my frens help but..-.- ... 4get it... its difficult to depend on ppl man... 1 was like giving excuses lor.. it was so damn clear tt she din wanna help.. so 4get it! if she din wanna help juz say so.. i was like telling her.."u sure u passing it to me? if u not den say not lor.. dun make me wait den last min say cant..-.-.." so.. ya.. not sure how m i gonna get it... thinking should i go back sch print not.. dunno is it even open.. or juz collect my clothes try other day or wat lor.. arghh.. troublesome!
juz now alot of things happened too.. coz my hp batt flat.. argh!!! its driving me crazy.. my fren kena waited 4 20 mins to go home together but.. hai.... n my aunt is coming bacvk this evening le... so.. YAHOO! gonna get my hp le!
damn sian... i sick of this n tt... damn tired of ppl giving me stupid excuses n nonsense... juz count me out k?
looking 4ward to my next off day...
Li.di.ya turned back time on 2:36:00 AM.
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Saturday, October 09, 2004
FRI:
Taurus: Love, creativity, and beauty are all in your favor at this time.**
yeah! last day of exams liao... SLACK AH~! went ms with e ppl.. to club3...din really have e mood while i was inside.. dunno y.. too much techno? kinda long nv go club le? i was fed up.. no mood le after waiting 4 1++hrs 4 e guys? think most prob is coz of e last reason. yes.. damn cham lor.. like wth.. a few mins nv mind la.. but 1hr++ is too much of an extreme le lor.. later dunno wanna go in which club also..zzz... so inside club3 4 about ah hr den was thinking ask les 4 a midnite movie. should have agreed to go on a movie with him when he asked lor.. wrong choice man... anyway.. next time i m not going there anymore.. i still prefer my devils bar! luckily it was free entry lor...
so i took a cab dwn to fetch him from his house to go tm to c movie... wrong move again... should have went cine.... hai.. all my hp's fault lor.. reception like shit! batt flat. i even had to borrow taxi driver's hp charger...haha.. when i smsed him wan go cine c not, he did say yes.. but by e time i received his sms i was on e highway le lor..kao. den nvm.. wth.. go tm c have not... exactly wat i tot, it was closed liao... by e tm we reach tm it was about 1 le lor... den e cab fare was 20++.. ex lor! in e end also took a cab down to cine.. we siao liao la.. so damn waste $.... argh!!!!!!!!! den go all e way there dun have terminal liao..-.- den in e end watched Ladykiller... tom hanks is e main actor... e eng they use damn chim lor... was like..o man.. waste $ again... ok la.. was funny la... but e front part like dunno wat they toking about.. ok la.. but still.. quite a stupid show... den inside my eyes were like closing.. damn dry coz of e contacts.. wore it 4 more than 10hrs lor! after e show go home liao...den slack a bit b4 i went to slp at ard 7...
TODAY:
Taurus: People won't hear you when you tell them that they are wrong.**
den ard 11 auto woke up... wanted to cont with my slp de but slp till headache so 4get it. later went tm buy ros's bday present with qiao mei den headed to downtown east e chalet le.. damn sian lor... went so early... 3+ leh! den c all her sisters n frens there.. sian liao..den went play pool. $9/hr lor! ex leh! some more e place like shit! (i still prefer my mega pool at parkway....) den after e pool session not long later e bbq start le... 1 by 1 her ex-classmates came... was sitting at e table with them den wth.. like class gathering lor.. i damn extra lor.. after having beehoon.. i went home le. -.- waited so long juz to eat e beehoon.. myself leave earlier rite... din wanna bbq myself coz e sis n ppl were like standing there lor.. like..-.- 4get it.. i m not going 4 such things again... i dun wanna give them face le.. wats e use when i know tt i wun enjoy myself? i dun give a damn le! qi si ren...
KILL ME BA KILL ME!!!!! damn sian ah.... feel tt my energy has all drained up.. so tired... so restless.... so damn hungry! gonna find food le.... =P
Li.di.ya turned back time on 11:12:00 PM.
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Thursday, October 07, 2004
Taurus: There's no way you can plan for the wild events of the day. Hold on.** <---huh? o.0
no mood to study now.. coz all i can think about is PARTY! YEAH!
will b going down to ms with a few of my classmates after our prsp paper tomolo... yes..tts e last 1! n tts how we chill out after all e stress! ... haha... hope we can at least get into 1 of e clubs there... gonna try e wu bar...
den during e hol my class gonna have a chalet.... really sian to go... coz of some ppl in my class... n moreover i m not tt sociable kind u c...dun really tok to most of e ppl... really dunno wat to tok about...sian... mayb i will juz go 4 1 day or wat only.. hai...
not bad la.. kinda like poly life alot... find it damn happening lor.. its better than wat i have first imagined b4 i came to poly..wahaha... to me la... now at this moment... dunno about e rest... dunno bout next time.. next sem.. well... mainly.. u juz gotta mix with ppl.! if u dun.. u really lose out... really sad case man... yeah.. at first tot i will b 1 of those "loners"... hmm..was really dread of getting into poly...
yeah.. last paper liao.. n i can slack again! so far e 3 papers tt i have sat 4.... really damn cham lor... tot fndb n maths would b a breeze but no lor...hai.. but aiyo... 'lao tian ye' .. juz let me pass can le...
haiya.. dunno wat to write liao... juz damn excited 4 e hol to come... goona ktv again..pool...it has been a long time man... n i need a hol! long time no go le.. most prob gonna go bali with dad... only..-.- .. unless my sis 'she de' take leave from her work la... o well.. better have some things.. clothes 4 me to buy while i m there...
Li.di.ya turned back time on 11:57:00 PM.
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Taurus: Difficulties with romance fade. Conflict is replaced by understanding.**
KILL ME BA KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
wa.. damn 'dui bu qi' my ah pa..... ='( e whole of study wk i din study much.. carc n prsp completely nv touch.. juz went thru a bit of e maths n first half part of fndb.. so behind de all blur blur lor.. N TOMOLO IS MY FIRST PAPER LE! WAHH!!!! wanted to study hard de... pass with flying colours.. next time den 'you chu xi'... but... hai..
yesterday was in front of e pc e whole day again.. hai...dunno do wat also..pc stuff...at nite was toking with a fren online... hmm... enjoyed tt alot.. coz it has been a long time since i had tt kind of conversation with any1... wanted to study 1(..again) but...hack care la! later or tomolo la.. was sending me songs too.. den toked about his ex-gf.. tot they still together but said they juz broke up... she was going overseas to study 4 about 3-4 yrs.. den told him not to wait 4 him(she was crying when saying tt..). -.- ... wa.. i bth this kind of thing lor... y they always say such thing de.. but its kinda true tt it is hard to have a long distance relationship.. mayb she is insecure.. mayb she have no confidence..but they have been together for 4yrs le lor! tts long k.. as if she bear to break also.. mayb tts wat her mind wanna do but not her heart..so asked him to make her stay lor.. but muz b sure tt he will stay faithful to her la.. no use making empty promises... but i guess its hard to do tt...guys..hai...'ren' la!..hai.. i understand how tt girl feels...n how she will b after e break..juz like wat e CLEO mag says below... poor thing.. think most girls feel n think alike la...
ok la.. nv had a proper love life b4... mayb i dun have e courage.. coz sometimes its a torture 4 mind! .. dun think i can take it
reminds me of this song..."nu ren he ku wei nan nu ren......" i nv quite believe in girl fights... unless tt girl did something to provoke me la...den i wun even give a damn man..
hai...i muz fight 4 my 'xing fu' ! cannot b so "shy".. coward le!
"Pllliiissss..." heard tt balloon deflating le ma? BLEAH! say say only la..hai....
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juz shared with me another story of his fren… 20 yr old kena dumped by a 23yr old guy. Reason: she is too young! -.- LAME! Does age really matter? I think tt was juz a stupid excuse to get rid of her. Juz 3yrs diff.. not like wat ma.. go out with xiao mei mei meh? Cannot b.. I was like: “ wah.. come shoot me ah..” think its only appropriate tt e guy is older.. n not e other way rd.. funny la.. guys mature slower la… quite true lor.. juz look at some of e guys in my class… zzzz…..c le also sian… haha…. Ya.. tt girl was crying infront of them.. den mentioned tt she wanna marry him .. he said he almost laughed -.- … ok.. mayb 3months together n she think so much liao funny la.. but.. ok la.. a bit insensitive too lor… hmm.. but she ok le la.. got herself another guy.. hmm… gd 4 her lor..
Li.di.ya turned back time on 3:57:00 PM.
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Saturday, October 02, 2004
Taurus: Your creative ability is at a peak. Create your next masterpiece.** <-- yeah.. how i wish i can do something else besides STUDYING!
v funny thing happened to me juz now when i went eastpoint NTUC.. haha..
bought some food stuff n my hair conditioner 4 my frizzy hair... was Q-ing at e cashier... den when i gave e ntuc union card e woman told me short of 35cents to collect points. was still thinking should 4 get it not? not my card anyway...den suddenly a voice came from behind ..."yao shuan wo de ma?"(wanna include mine?) den turn ard.. woohoo~ a cute guy... (his tone, chi also a bit cute de..) well.. not tt every1 will think he is cute coz he is not like those.. beach boys,baby kind of cute.. but he is quite cute to me le... hehe think he ard 20 le.. mature looking decent looking.. a bit e type i like.. lol...actually notice a guy behind me le.. tot of checking whether its a cute 1 or wat but was thinking.... aiya... bz body 4 wat.. hack care la. din know.. hehe... he ok lor.. kinda alrite or skinny type.. but not till so 'er xin' lor... a bit tan? (couldnt c properly coz din wear my contacts) den.. wa.. =D~ den with specs, wearing a black t-shirt.. looked as if its like police or dunno wat t-shirt.. or mayb juz normal de.. din go n c also.. but reminds me of ncc de... haha.. was thinking.. wa... macho liao.. really have a thing 4 NS guys or wat..dunno y.. i siao le.. y din he ask 4 my no. ? lol... nuff! was like standing there 4 bout 1 min coz v messy.. he paid by nets den i paid by cash. think e woman also luan liao.. i was like.. "wa.. damn messy ah..", "thanks", "thanks"... n he juz smile smile smile.. quite sweet la.. haha.. think of it also makes me smile.. hah.. omg..
ok.. din study much again today though i made myself stay at home again.. argh... do pc stuff again...
dunno y... now i m in [P-A-R-T-Y MOOD]! woohoo~
think i listen to too much of dance songs liao.. stayed up late last nite supposed to study but was online exchanging songs with my fren n toking..-.- den after tt went str8 to bed. found more nice songs yesterday... 1. Anastasia- left outside alone(radio edit) 2.la luna(dance) 3.sometimes when we touch(remix).. blah blah blah... really cant wait 4 exams to b over! think after my paper gonna 'jie fang' liao.. hmm.. mayb i shouldnt take things too seriously at times.. gotta relac man.. enjoy life! .. but yes.. i will still have my own pride la.. gonna try doing things tt i din dared to... things tt i have always wanted to do... blah... u r gonna c a new me! wahaha... i think.. =X
ok.. here's a funny thing tt happened to me quite some time ago liao..
guy: u v ai mei hor..? (or zhi lian)
me: ok la.. juz nuting to do play with cam ma..
den later dunno wat he said..
guy: u not confident of urself meh?
me: u say i zhi lian ma... how can i have no confidence..
haha... i tot tt it was v well said.. i mean, i was making sense ma..den dunno he tok wat shit.. but ok.. mayb its not funny la.. bleah!
ok.. tomolo gonna c resident evil with lynn.. dunno dan n ivan going not.. hmm.. damn tempted to go club 3 with them tomolo.. hmm.. shall c how..OK! study time.. hmm..o.0 or mayb not.. bleah...
Li.di.ya turned back time on 11:21:00 PM.
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Taurus: Any redecorating or designing you want to do should be done now.**
God... juz came back from supper with my "neighbour" ..hehe... *BURP.. kinda having a stomach pain now.. argh...gonna prepare myself to study liao. yup.. dun think will b sleeping early tonite.. guess ard 3..4 plus.. y? COZ E WHOLE DAY I DIN STUDY AT ALL EVEN I WAS AT HOME ALL E WHILE!!! -.- was bz watching tv.. munching on stuff n downloading songs from irc... damn sickening lor.. always download halfway den will stop.. gotta request so many times to resume n complete them..argh.h..
downloaded e Jiang Nan mtv by lin jun jie. dunno y.. kinda like this song alot now.. e melody.. blah... though juz roughly know wat is it about la..love lai de la.. 'ah ga ah ga' la... found some nice dance songs on e web too. some which i heard in clubs but dunno wat tittle is it...so couldnt get their mp3.. 1 of them goes like e song "Don't want you back" ... but its e "Fuck It" ver.? goes to to his ex gf... den heng heng found another ver. sang by e ex tt goes out to him..haha.. cool~ its called "Fuck u Back" haha.. damn interesting.... 2 ver. 2nd song.: Deep Spirit-Lonely (radio edit) 3rd song: Dragostea Din Tei
hai... today nuting much happened to me la.. at home e whole day.. wat interesting things can happen to me.. was rotting in front of e pc e whole day lor... at least juz now got to get out of this stupid house.. 'tou tou qi' .... hai... wasted e whole day. fri liao.. exams will b starting in 4 days time.. havent even finish my cmaths.. damn complicating lor..-.- was thinking about wat ros told me e other day..kinda true with wat she said ,.. n i kinda agree with u..(eh.. dun think u will get to c this..) ya.. i kinda agree with her.. its so damn hard to find some1 tt u can "click" so well....enjoyed every single moment with him...but guess it will nv b e same again..it will b difficult to change this whole 'thing' liao though i really wanna do something about it.. but this 'thing' has become haywire le... weird liao.vvv weird feeling le..on and off.. like wats wrong with us.. wats wrong with me! think we both r trying to make each other clear about this whole thing... gd in a way... dun think so much..or give false hope... but it seems tt i m not able to stop it. unlike "tt person". so i dun even wanna c him at ros bday bbq even when she ask me to invite.... it is sure difficult to stay as fren with .. u know...
got this from this month's CLEO mag:
"A more interesting fact is tt e breakup of a relationship seems to do a lot more damage to e woman's mental health than to e man's. When a relationship is wrecked by conflict n mistrust, a woman tends to dwell on e issues n tires herself out mentally n emotionally."
"A woman may also take more time to fully recover from a bad relationship, while men r biologically tuned to moving on to their next partner as a natural means of propagating their genes. In doing so, they r indirectly protected as their minds dont take such an emotional beating."
now.... how true is tt....
o well... back to my studies now..
Li.di.ya turned back time on 2:58:00 AM.
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