Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Taurus: Mercury turns direct today; communication gets back on track.**
juz feel like switching off my hp. "disconnect" from this place. but i turned it to silent mode instead. watever, i need a break. i dun give a damn to who is gonna call me next or send an sms. ok.. im trying to do tt. i dunno i m suffering from d_____ or wat.. it juz goes on n off...10101010101................ mg..
u call me NT-social? a loner? so wat? i'm not alone. i m not e only 1 who feels e way i m feeling rite now. u understand by this sentence, extracted from e movie "b4 sunset"? ==> "its better to b alone than having ur lover beside u n feel lonely." exactly same as wat i think. i'd rather b alone. blah blah..... having lots of tots rite now. not gonna type it here. no pt i guess. none of any1's business. (if any1 actually waste their time to c this)
sometimes ppl juz hurt u so bad w/o knowing themselves.. dun they 'fan xing'? mayb its my own fault, causing these things to happen. sometimes it juz makes me wonder m i really tt bad of a person? tt i dun deserve gd treatment from any1? every1 has their own side of e story. but do they know mine? dun even think they r bothered by it coz i c no effort being made. ok la.. i m a boring person k. i know.
i m unsure about myself as well as e ppl ard me. feeling insecure all of a sudden. damn lousy. y do i let ppl affect me so easily? think i need some1 to slap me real hard in e face. or juz ... 'sha le wo ba'!
sch today was great! nv felt this "enlightened" b4. actually paid attention during NMM lec. so proud of myself. =B picked up a few impt points today 4 web designing which i think is v useful coz have been doing e wrong stuff all these while. hmm... den actually went to e library to find some books by myself. woohoo~ i should do this more often man. gotta catch up with my sch work le.
went to e vcd shop at simei 4 an interview.. (pray hard tt i get e job man.) den home sweet home.. ah.. no place like it!
den 1 sickening thing happened. was having my dinner n watching tv when my aunt's tenant from china commented: "you zai buo she meh gui pi dian shi?" (translate to something like: wat stupid programme/e hell is e tv showing again?") nonetheless, tt was how rude it sounded. damn sacarstic. e tv was showing "hai you ming tian" lor. like... b sensitive pls... trying to say tt singapore's programmes suck is it? infront of me? sorry.. i m not ur 'tong zhi' lor. i love my country. i love singapore. no respect man. always saying stuffs about singaporeans with another tenant, who is her 'tong zhi'. like as if we r e only SICK ones who treat e maids badly....blah blah... watever. fed up of her. everytime tok until so sacarstic n ask weird n stupid Q. i will make sure my aunt chase u 2 out!
tomolo going out with ros n qiao mei. hope everything goes well when i wake up tomolo. still dunno wat i gonna do on christmas. actually planned quite a bit but.... i really dunno... hai... sometimes juz sick of ppl asking wat m i gonna do blah blah blah with my "frens".... do have a few but not tt close. coz they have their own stuff, frens n bf to tend to.. so........ 4 this new yr may b going with ros n group to chiong... if possible join pei yuan too. if not.. stay at home again lor. =P
SAT:
Taurus: Don't read too deeply into unexpected comments from loved ones.**
went to dan's bd party. was kinda weird 4 me coz most of e ppl r from his camp, den.. ya... guess tt goes to lynn, ivan n another guy as well... so we were like e odd 1s. so after passing him his present n eating some food, left his place n went to meet sam 4 e movie marathon le.
on e train to orchard saw my hairstylist cousin too. so i went up to him.was expecting a 'hi' but all i got was him, staring at me. -.- n i had to say "u know who m i or not?" again. he couldn't regconize me! bleah! mayb coz we only c each other during chi new yr when his family come to my aunt's house... n when i m always 'lub lub' dressed. =P
SUN:
Taurus: When you make your intention clear, you get tremendous support.**
double ocean's movie marathon was kinda nice.. (tiring too..) prefered Ocean's 11 than 12 coz more "action".. after e movie we walked to e esplanade to slack le. juz love tt part. felt damn relaxed n stuff... =) XING FU! bleah.... later went to 85 4 breakfast den home sweet home le... shrek is ON tonite!
Li.di.ya turned back time on 9:20:00 PM.
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Taurus: Watch out for excess in everything - especially rants about others.**
in sch having UIR(using e internet as a research tool) in e lab now. sian. juz came to sch 4 this coz i woke up late n was kinda late 4 e 2nd lec as well. so.. hai.. watched my Bourne Identity vcd b4 i left e house. dunno y e hell we have to LEARN how to use e search engines. -.- ok.. partly my fault to choose this as my CDS, but this does not include exams, ez to pass n get e pts. but damn boring. unlucky me, no more place 4 e ones i looking 4 in design sch.. so o well..'sui bian'.
o.. today e "bartender" din come 4 UIR. hai.. n e teacher wants us to b in a group of 4 for our assignment. hmm.. was thinking could we get him into ours since there r only 3 of us.. asked her a little juz now but she din give us an ans. mayb me n kelly giggled too much so she ignored us.. pai seh ma...haha... think e row of girls on our left were thinking wth we were doing.. hmm.. mayb after e class we tok to her in private? o.O haha.. aiya.. juz wanna get to know him a bit better ma.. hehe.. same lec hall anyway. nice to know more new frens.
hmm.. dunno wat i m gonna do after sch.. sian to go back home. but think i should juz stay at home n go thru my notes n arrange them properly. messy messy.
tomolo no sch! juz a Cmaths lec but think i give tt a miss. gotta plan programmes 4 tomolo. go ktv? shop 4 gifts? go chiong? tonite gonna find khakis le. mayb going Devil's Bar with ai ling. or c pei yuan wanna go Chinablack not. hmm..
MON:
Taurus: Information is hidden from you now. You don't have all the facts.**
nuting much to say about sch today. missed e DCNK lec again. n my OOPG (java programing) SUCKS! i dunno how e hell i m gonna stay on to this course 4 another 2+half yrs. hai..
during e 1hr break went to e market opp tp. they have real cheap vcds n dvds 4 rent. but too bad i din manage to get e titles i was looking 4. ALL actually. so after sch went Eastpoint to return e 2 i rented e other day. n rented another vcd. The Terminal. not a bad show... but really find e guy poor thing. cant imagine how e Real person is, to stay at an airport for 16yrs? or more? sad case.
so after tt went to sam's house after getting (alot of) food stuff from e 'pasar malam' at 201. i think if we continue to do this.. we gonna put on weight n our pocket will 'puo yi ge da dong'. mg.. we watched tt, a bit of SCV n soon was already 12. b4 i left actually saw some of e things his ex-gf gave him. damn creative, v cute. yup.. she is cute too.. think e things tt she wrote is v interesting.. roughly get a bit of e idea though i din read everything. not so nice to invade other's privacy rite? after tt he juz walked me home.. =) n blah.... =P
SUN:
Taurus: If you can't accept the truth about someone, leave the relationship.**
today another "movie marathon" with sam. rented Wishing Stairs, Mona Lisa's Smile n Bourne Identity. watched Wishing Stairs first. think it isnt as gd as watching it in e cinema coz of e sound effects n e big screen blah.. but overall alrite la. felt kinda sad 4 e dead girl. there were some parts where she kept saying: "all i need is u." n e other girl juz kept running away. ok la.. ghost is scary la.. but she was damn evil too, doing stuffs to her. mayb too much of jealousy.. hmm... was all ready to watch Shrek on tv but it was showing Big Mama's House instead. O.O i was v sure it was suppose to b on tt nite. hmm.. den Star Awards on channel 8. poor Jasslyn Tay think tripped on her dress while walking e "red carpet". nvm.. it still like her! =) when she went up to get e award she said something like: "e impt thing is getting up after a fall, n not e fall itself." BRAVO! next was Mona Lisa's Smile. quite interesting but too draggy. wanted to watch Bourne Identity but guess every1 was kinda tired already.. it was ard 12.30 already.. so he left after tt.
o ya.. bought a lot of tidbits 4 this thingy. big packet of twisties, caramel popcorn, ice cream(in e end din mange to eat tt) n green tea. was kinda full after tt. moreover my aunt boiled tomato+egg soup. however.. i still ordered pizza hut 4 dinner. e Wishing star pizza? nuting fantastic about it, rather have e normal pizza in e supreme range. after tt another aunt actually brought cooked food back from cousin's house. c-ing tt our pizza havent arrived yet, offered a little of rice n dishes to him. ok.. i seemed crazy or wat.. stuffing him with food but trying to take gd care of my guest ok.. hehe.. ok la.. told him tt he din have to finish everything anyway. but he still did. mayb pai seh la.. my fault. later put on weight le...my fault. =( hmm.. did i frighten him? O.O wahahaha......
yup. gonna catch e DOUBLE OCEAN'S MOVIE MARATHON! its on this sat! =D used his debit card to book it online. cant wait! hehe... not sure i will b going to dan's bd party b4 tt.. still thinking hmm... Lynn will b going only if i go too. hai.. juz scared tt i will get bored there coz mostly will b his group of frens. i m not so "sociable" ma... hai.. mayb la mayb.
Li.di.ya turned back time on 3:16:00 PM.
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Saturday, December 11, 2004
Taurus: You've reached a climax with regard to love. Now take a new approach.**
shag. din have my beauty slp last nite until this morning. this is so damn bad 4 my skin. but i din regret going out till tt late.. hehe... ;) suppose to c Before sunrise vcd at my place but i decided to push it to tomolo. channel5 gonna have Shrek too.. so.. can have another "movie marathon"!
GV will b having a Ocean's 11 and 12 movie marathon! + free flow of popcorns n coke for $20. thinking whether to go 4 it or rent.. $4 only.. hmm...c how.. if i can find e vcd tomolo mayb rent it together with Before sunrise.
FRI:
Taurus: The fight has begun. Don't pull away. Stand your ground with strength.**
yesterday went 4 a movie marathon! hehe... watched Without a paddle n National Treasure with sam at cine. din really wanna watch 2 shows coz really broke now..( though most of e stuffs not i pay de..still.. waste so much $ on movies 4 wat..)
alrite. went NYDC 4 "dinner" b4 e show at 9plus. had their cakes with ice cream. hmm... not tt gd as wat i had expected. but alrite.. now so sick of eating.. same food everyday. western food from diff restaurants seems e same to me. BLEAH. n so 'qiao'.. think i saw 1 of e guys in e frenster. remember how he looks like coz he kinda have a "tweety" face? ha.. watever.
so after e movie walked ard.. n guess who i saw.. leslie. haha. with his fren. din went up to say hi anyway.. was thinking watever 4.. but mayb i should have huh? nvm. over liao.. den later went up to play pool. actually was thinking whether to go Mad Monks not since li qin 'nan de called me.. nv been to e so called "lesbian club" anyway..tot go c c.. but after e pool sms-ed her she said she left le.. so o well.. no need 4 me to go dwn there le. so while walking out of cine.. walking aimlessly... din know where else to go, wat else to do, sam suggested another movie! either National Treasure or Blade. but 4 e Blade i havent watched e first few 1s so... chose e other instead. but after we had bought e tix we realised e k-box at lvl 8 opens till 5. we were like damn it! should have went 4 tt.. 2-5 de package. but too bad! was thinking not bad ma.. till 5.. den can wait 4 e morning bus le... so at e time was only 1 plus lo..finding stuffs to do.. walk up n dwn n escalator. u seriously cant imagine how many times we had done tt. i have lost count myself too. so.. no pool again pls.. went to play arcade den. some snacks at subway. bought myself a small bottle of renu eye drops from 7-11 coz my contacts were getting dry n irritating.. mayb i should really get a pair of glasses with nice frames 4 wearing out. but 1 prob: money pls.... I NEED A PT JOB!!!
e movie wasnt tt bad after all.. mayb coz it was kinda exciting at e last part. e front part mayb coz of all e toking, almost made my eyes close. ya la.. we were sitting Couple seats. woohoo~ but.. haha damn comfortable la.. like sofa like tt.. hmm..
so after tt home sweet home le.. took 65... slept on his shoulders. woo.. SWEET! lol
alrite.. 4 sch today did nuting much.. b.o.r.i.n.g. maths lec. 1 hr lunch break. NMM tut. ya got e project 4 NMM le. due on wk 14. panic panic. i juz think there it is not enuff time. gotta start doing research soon. needa do tt.. den reports.. hai. i hate reports. type type type. find pics to scan on e topics i choose. blah.. cant get it from net.. coz.."it has been compressed, edited. gotta start from SCRATCH". bleah. stress stress. hmm.. kinda nice to have a pretty teacher. haha. she tok n look a bit ang mo type n juz love her lips. soft, thick but small n red(mayb tts e effect of lipsticks) juz so nice to kiss. =X not a pervert ba...ok la.. abit jealous la..lol. after tt juz stayed at home check e time 4 e movies. tot could go straight to orchard from sch but 8plus den meeting.. so might as well go home take a nap first. couldnt get in touch with gek ling too. wanted to meet up ma.. den.. hai... go home la!
i seriously HATE those ppl who give me stupid comments. dunno trying to b funny or wat.. i think its being sacarstic lor.. well... i do watever i wanna do. i wanna stand i stand. i wanna sit i sit. i wanna tok, laugh, smile, get crazy its up to me. dun ask me stupid Q like: ""ni zhuo she meh?"(wat r u doing) giving tt kind of look, as if i m doing something weird.. abnormal... juz shut up will do! ok la.. i juz have something against tt person mayb...
THURS:
not a gd day in sch also.. hmm.. should know y... it always happens every now n then. sick of it man. i juz dun wanna repeat myself. juz let me tok to myself n ans my own question pls... i juz starting to dislike sch again. n its only e first wk of sch!
WED:
Taurus: Honesty is your main focus for the day. Don't stray from it.**
went 4 suki buffet after sch. eat eat eat. ya now e k-box student package is so damn cheap! after tt walked ard orchard(dunno how many times i have been to tt place this wk. sian) went to paragon e Gucci shop. having sale or wat. like so damn ex! noticed 1 plain white shoe so damn nice, selling at $600++. -.-" ok.. mayb its alrite 4 e clothes n shoes n blah coz mayb they last longer.. better quality n materials used.. but i find it stupid tt they have those key rings selling at hundred plus. seriously those rich guys have no where else to spend their $ on man.. like give me some pls. ya.. how i wish! was so damn tired after tt.. dragged myself. eyes damn tired. i m not sure these few days i m lack of slp or wat. i juz like to slp so much. or is it coz or e weather? raining almost everyday. managed to drag myself to far east. hmm.. nowadays i juz keep see-ing nike shoes everywhere( limited edition or dunno wat shit) all looks e same to me.. with e nike tick.. juz in diff colours n materials. ok la.. not bad also la... nice too. N I BOUGHT A "TAP N GO" WATCH IN LUMINOUS ORANGE! juz hit it on ur wrist n it will go ard it. nice! i love it so much. its juz 4 $7. after $2 off. cheap la.. dun really mind if e watch wun really last long, i have 2 other watches anyway, 4 formal n non-formal occasions, its enuff already. i can juz get e 'watch face'? out den use e band as an accessory. =)
TUE:
Taurus: Produce a deep, provocative and personal piece of art today.**
nuting much happened in sch la...damn boring. went 4 CDS. all about using search engines to do reaserches. lame. den e "bartender" sat beside me.. haha. tot he gonna sit e row infront of me n kelly but dunno y later asked if any1 sitting beside me. mayb he c same lec hall la.. so juz sit together lor. but i felt damn bad. din tok to him at all.. he alone ma.. den i have kelly.. wa.. like really anti-social ah. but din know wat to say to him also. but hmm.. juz c next wk CDS will sit together again not. juz ask some stupid Q lor.. hmm.. really find him cuter n cuter nowadays.. malay guys also not bad de. juz like e'toot toot' glasses he always wear. so cool. e other day saw him w/o it he juz looked so weird to me.
went to meet ros n qiao mei at orchard. so nice to b with them. i wanna do it more often. dinner at cartel was great. toked about stuffs. den window shopping abit.. looking 4 gifts actually. later meet with kellyne after her work 4 pool at lucky plaza... hmm.. so tt nice la e place.. still like cine kpool! they juz play e songs so damn loud! haha. den later took bus back with ros..
went back to tm rite after sch to return e keys too. saw e girl i dislike while walking dwn e escalator. den juz reminded me about complaining her again. decided to sms e boss saying tt i have returned e key n at e same time let her know what she needed to know. seemed as if i trying to 'sabo' her ah.. but who cares. i m outta there le. juz said tt she sometimes go off w/o imforming me.. go shopping or run errands. juz let her know la. ok used 2 sms 4 tt le.. so was thinking juz say more stuffs n make full use of tt 2nd sms. but i accidentally pressed e 'send' button. so o well.. nvm.. 4 get it. den e boss actually called me 2 times, both missed while i was taking a bus dwn to my dad's place. din dare to call her back..=X but mayb i should have.. mayb she wanted to know more. hai. den she sent me a msg juz saying thanks. hope she was glad she found it out from me.. wat her dear staff have been doing.. hmm..slept on e bus. juz so damn tired. missed my stop man. n i had to walk 1 stop back. -.- late liao lor...
MON:
Taurus: It will be hard to get into the spirit if your basic needs aren't met.**
first day of sch! damn excited. c familiar faces...had new teachers blah...some damn cute.. some damn lame. 1 day of sch, 1st lec already kena scolded. coz was 20mins late.. went to print notes ma.. was scolding us n we 3 couldnt b bother with him.. din 'hiu'? him while he was standing behind us.. juz sat dwn w/o looking back at him. ya.. he is e lame 1. trying to b funny n tell lame jokes only. but not funny lor. another 1 quite cute la.. funny... but 'lor so'.. but mayb its gd to make sure every student knows wat he is teaching but sometimes really take too much of time le. n so on ... with e other teachers.
Li.di.ya turned back time on 8:10:00 PM.
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Sunday, December 05, 2004
Taurus: Pay back old debts. Don't leave anything outstanding. Come clean.** <--sui bian la...
today: Hibernating state. bleah....stayed at home e whole day. excited to go back to sch tomolo but at e same time v sian too. from tomolo onwards, mon-thurs gotta wake up early 4 my lessons which start at 9. only fri i get to slp later coz sch starts at 12. but e shiok part is tt tue n wed my sch ends at 12. i planned wat i gonna do on wed le.. after ach gonna eat suki buffet with cleveland.. den mayb after tt go ktv since i have vouchers 4 k-ster. but i m really not so sure it this whole thing will b cancelled no coz i sensed tt his attitude towards me changed le. damn obvious anyway. i m not sure but think i made e rite move. gotta tell him sooner or later, tt i m attached... well MAY B attached ONLY. i juz din wan him to do so many things.. treat me so gd,in e end get nuting in return, feel cheated only coz i think i have some1 in mind already.i did enjoy photo taking, shopping, n sentosa-exploring moments while i was with him, but i juz think tt we r more suitable to stay as frens (if we both dun mind tt). he is those 'zhu dong' type (mayb gd 4 me coz i kinda 'nei xiang'? or is it 'wai xiang' type?) v caring n 'lor so' sometimes.. but when we meet can really make me wait until 'pek cek'. some things he do also annoys me. he may b e type tt can give me a hug or cuddle when i need 1 but dun think there is "tt much of a connection". sort of emotionally? as in e things we can share together? mayb its too short of a period tt we had known each other i dunno, but i decided to give some1 else a chance first. hope i m doing e rite thing.
e other person is e 1 whom i can c myself with 4 quite a long time. we share alot of things together there.. even our (or mayb only his) relationships stuff.. blah...anything...for hrs. hmm... i actually dun go into a relationship if i think it wun last long. so hopefully it turns out alrite n will cherish e time being with me(not like some other idiots). if e past is to repeat itself again i will make sure they regret it...its their loss. i can most certainly sure of it coz.. it did happen. hai...i m not gd at (or cant) express myself well with body language or in speech...WATEVER. 'shi bai' ah...
"A tattoo is a mark in time based on what you want to say about yourself for the rest of your life." <-- yeah.. i did tot of getting 1....
past few days have been enjoying life with my frens, to e point tt i dun wish to lose this feeling, lose them (if anything were to happen). i juz feel so gd being with them. well mayb tts juz 4 now... but i really wish tt it will last 4ever...our frenship. =) think i have found some1 who can make me feel "safe", who i can trust.
SAT:
Taurus: People have been deceiving you. Today you find out how and why.** <--- O.O 'bu hui ba'... almost hibernated at home. however last min decided to go out. went to c The incrdibles with kenny after so many ppl have said its worth e $... true enuff.. damn cute n funny. n e short story/animation tt they show b4 e movie too. think any "cartoon" movies will have tt... think e other time(last yr if i m not wrong') i watched Finding Nemo it had 1 too.
b4 tt played pool at k-pool. suprise suprise. saw ros n bf at ps too while i was gonna walk to cine. she was taking pics outside starhub. haha. joined her 4 a pic. hehe. n ya i wanna comment on e new food court tt is now open at marina. it has an outdoor dinning place too n has a sea? view. directly across u can c e esplanade. kinda nice.
nope i did not 4get tt i m broke. now i m worse. left juz a few coins in my wallet. gotta refrain from shopping. but now.. to settle my 3 meals also have prob. think gotta withdraw more money from bank le. n something is making me puzzle. y is there a withdrawal or $111.22 from my account on e 25Nov? i lost my memory or wat? cant even remembered wat i did, where i went on tt day. i juz couldnt have bought an item tt expensive. not over a hundred. i have check my stuff in this whole house. nuting reminds me on this.."$111.22 item". ARGH!!! i m finding ways to c if i could check where on earth i have spent this $ at. on wat? mearly juz checking... coz i need to know! rite? like wth....
FRI:
Taurus: Don't get too caught up in the dream of former relationships.**
1. pathetic 45mins (or 30mins coz was 15 mins late) briefing in sch 4 e next sem
2.dinner with polymates! usual group...kelly, leo n ta ming. brenda last min couldnt join us.
ended up at cartel 4 dinner after much discussion n changing of minds. den next was ktv at chinatown. wanted to look 4 e 1 my fren said is juz $10 bucks but... went to k-ster lor. damn ex i muz say. $14/person. 4 juz 3hrs. think compared to kbox de student package not worth it lor. n e sound system wasnt as gd either. -.-... mayb juz use up e vouchers they give 4 joining their membership n nv go back there anymore.
after tt went home together with ta ming le lo.. took bus to bedok den cab. nice journey home with him. like e anklet(which i tot was a bracelet until i got home) which he bought from taiwan. gonna change e length 4 my wrist le. was looking 4 a bracelet too. nice timing. hehe. damn paiseh tt i din get anything 4 him n others from bali too. but he damn nice de la.. wun mind such things de. damn sweet lor. bought things 4 every1. o ya. he is a "techno" kinda person. dun look like eh.. we would sometimes juz exchange mp3... hehe
ya at tm with leo juz now b4 meeting ta ming, he said he say sg sly. at orchard they saw daphane. damn it. i damn blind or wat... both also din c. hai. n leo said leandra was at cheeky monkey tonite. haha.. too bad he din get to go. boo! so.. today's a nite out 4 e sg idols huh.. haha.. so where was maia? out too? or at home babysitting?
THURS:
Taurus: Strut your stuff. Don't hide away. A confident attitude wins.**
nuting much today. juz met sam 4 dinner n found out about this "dinner on e boat" thingy from him. damn sweet n lomantic ah..haha. but dun think will b going.. juz not so sure about spending money on tt though i do like e idea. ya.. told cleveland about e stuffs.... blah...
WED:
Taurus: Miscommunication will plague you during the next three weeks.** <-- no! i will not make tt happen!
Taufik Batisah won e sg idol tittle! gd... tt was wat i wish 4.. well i juz prefer him more than e sly... sly's It's my life juz went haywire lo... din sound tt gd...
at nite was damn crazy. went 4 a nite run. sam go crazy with me. din managed to jog much in e park at my place. sam suggested to run some where else. tot tt was insane coz i havent ran 4 a long time n tot i couldnt do it.. but i did! suprisingly... ran towards simei green.. expo tt stretch of rd towards changi airort de.. den thru e housing estates which leads to melville park. so.. now i know how to walk out to take bus 24 to changi airport if i have to... after e long jog sat at e playground n chit chat 4 some time b4 we decided to go 4 supper at 201. roti prata again of coz. later go home bathe le.. den soon fell aslp.
in e afternoon actually met gek ling to go to my aunt's condo e gym. but last min couldnt so after catching up with her at tm a while i went there alone. managed to use e "lifts" there which i failed e last time.. then e cycling 1. dunno wat happened to e treadmill, couldnt use.. so hack. left e place after tt. tt explains y i wanted to go 4 e nite run. hai.. juz realized tt i need some workout man.
Li.di.ya turned back time on 11:06:00 PM.
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