The Greatest Pain in Life

  The greatest pain in life
is not to die, but to be ignored.

To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.

To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.

When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.

To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.

To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.

To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".

When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.

For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.

When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.

Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?

Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.

Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.

If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.

You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.

 

Taurus: Remember that you can't go from first date to marriage in one day.** <-- of coz i understand tt...

every morning when i wake up, i m always looking 4ward to something.. something tt will not happen again... cant stop myself from getting excited whenever there is a call or msg alert coming from my hp...bth...

really disappointed. nv tot tt he would go back to her.but i should have guessed it. who would wanna let a 4yr relationtion to go dwn e drain juz like tt? it would b such a waste. i did insist on asking her back b4 tt, y din he do it? until now we r together n she's back, asking 4 a patch? though he complained to me about her (even e time when we last met).... think he was juz trying to 'an wei' himself, not to go back to her again. well, it's pointless to juz tok, action is more impt. now i c wat he meant. tt's y he has been avoiding me.

BUT AT LEAST CLARIFY WITH ME LA!

gotta blame it on me. shouldnt have believed his words. shouldnt have gone together shortly after their break. shouldnt have "rushed" into this. Stayed as frens would have been juz as great. now it juz let me feel like as if im a "spare tyre".. again... juz in time when she went to Denmark 4 studies. glad tt it ended so soon.

ppl come n go.. n i m used to it. so guess it will b alrite if dun think too much.. past few days have been fine... but i juz feel angry when he dun say anything at all n settle this once n for all. dun tell me i have to wait 4 months again... i wanna so much to call him but shouldnt guys b e 1 to take initiatives? tts wat i think. he seemed uninterested too when i send or fwd sms. tt's how far i will go. tt's how passive i m, too bad i m not those pro-active type, if i do it will seem as if i m despo or irritating. hey.."it takes 2 hands to clap" rite?

however.. also glad to have some1 to share my tots n probs with during tt period, nv open up to any1 like this b4, though sometimes may only b a v small matter(glad tt he did too). enjoyed e time spent together(even if it was juz having coffee at 201. now tt i think of it.. it seems tt we havent gone out much on wkends..), e stuffs we did. though v simple(mayb tt wasnt wat he was looking 4), nv felt tt 'xing fu' b4.. but was kinda angry when he din reply to my sms tt day. n when i think i saw their pic still in his wallet e other time(din c clearly but how else should i react if it really was?), tt explains y i was suddenly all quiet on new yrs day when we were waiting to go into e cinema to watch Meet the Fockers.

e last time we met he asked me wat i think "loving a person" is all about. din reply tt...din know how too. dun like it when ppl ask me such "difficult" question. to him.. it's about "accepting e way tt person is". true. to me, i dun really know how to say but it's juz e way u feel when u r with tt person, n e many (romantic?) things u wanna do together blah. when i was with him it was e v first time i would take trouble to plan things(e.g dinner on christmas eve), even tot of going on a hol to somewhere like Bali(again) with him. i think too much n fast le. juz remembered e other time he shared about his fren's story.. a 'little mei mei' wanna marry a much older man. mayb a little like her huh...

mayb tt was e time which made him make up his mind on who to choose. coz i din seem to like him as much as e other did sometimes? n i always din know how to ans his "difficult" Qs?

all r my assumptions, i know i cant jump to conclusions, but how else can i not make myself think so much when he juz disappear w/o saying anything? i dun mind him going back but.. pls.. I NEED AN ANS PLS!

still.... enuff of all these le. i need a break.


watever things tt have happened to me recently.. i still like being e way i m.

1. sometimes e not-so-feminine kind of behaviour (dun expect me to whine pls)
2. weird stuff i may b doing (buying a 1.5l bottle of water to quench my thirst)
3. acting e way i feel (if this is how u treat me, this is wat u will get. i wun wanna be a 2-faced person u know)
4. boring me (i dun mind doing things e "simple-way". how do u classify some1 as an interesting person anyway? some1 who creates unnecessary "sounds" during, or even not during, a conversation? noise pollution n attention seeker pls)
5. quiet me (u wan me to act like an automatic gun huh? possible. tts when im in e HYPER mode, caused by some things or some1.)

blah blah blah... take it or leave it. i dun need to b some1 perfect in any1's eyes...



e other day my classmate juz shared with me his past relationship during his sec sch life. find it kinda cute tt he felt neglected by his gf.. haha...find it cute coz i think tt "ren zhen de nan ren (or nu ren) jui mei.." it shows tt e relationship meant alot to him, his gf should feel gd about it. becoz of this he dun wanna get a gf w/o thinking twice. they knew each other 4 a few wks only but lasted 4 a yr plus.. not bad already... ok la.. though looks a bit flirty but alrite la.. harmless kind. quite gd looking too so can get 1 easily de la..





FRI:
Taurus: An extra thoughtful gesture or kind word goes a long way with a lover.**

SHORTY SHORTY again! yup, went to cut my hair at kimage. not really satisfied with it though.. n e service.. e guy keeps scratching me with his long nails! wth.. n i had to pay $31.50(inclusive of $1.50 GST) 4 tt. no way m i going back there, not worth my $. i still like my chapter2, go back find tt Pamela next time.

argh.. no more 'nu ren wei' le .. look a bit kiddo n tomboy now =(... but with STYLE. =D haha.. ya as if... hmm.. e cap i bought from Bali have been lying in my cupboard 4 so long le.. now is e rite time. juz c when is it appropriate 4 me to wear it, n act a bit tomboy ya.. haha.. but dun think i have e rite clothes 4 tt... =P BLEAH!

wanted to go Mad Monks with sis until i heard tt they play rnb there.. not really into tt n Lennon wasnt going too.. so nah... next time when i m feeling rich ya...

Li.di.ya turned back time on 1:23:00 PM.